But God…

I reach for peace with trembling hands,
Still fumble through this shifting land.
I say I’ll do it right this time
Then trip again. Same hill to climb.

The fruit I seek seems far away,
Some sweet and ripe, some gone astray.
Love and joy—I grasp at it.
But patience? I’ve not mastered it.

I feel too much, too deep, too loud.
I shrink, I flare, I ache, I’m proud.
The thought becomes the feeling fast,
The feeling drives a choice that lasts.

But God—He waits through all my storms.
He holds me close, keeps me warm.
My weakness brings me to His feet,
Where strength and grace and mercy meet.

I cling again, I breathe Him in,
He heals the cracks I’ve broken in.
He knows my cycles yet stays near.
In Him, I trade my shame for cheer.

Every time I break or bend,
I’ll come back to my truest Friend.
And practice still, though flawed I be—
Until His fruit grows wild in me. 
Skelly-

Where the Fruit Begins

The Fruit of the Spirit often sounds so lovely on paper—peace, love, patience, gentleness, self-control. But some of those fruits can feel impossible to live out in a messy, human life. It’s not that we don’t want to be kind or self-controlled. It’s that we’re pulled by our feelings, overwhelmed by our circumstances, and forgetful of who we belong to.

But the Lord is patient with us. And He’s given us a simple, powerful roadmap that starts in the quiet places of our minds:
Thought → Feeling → Action.

It’s why scripture calls us to take every thought captive and fix our minds on what is true, noble, and pure (2 Corinthians 10:5, Philippians 4:8). Our thoughts set the course. When left unchecked, they become reactions that ripple outward into our families, communities, and lives. But when aligned with Christ? They produce peace, self-control, and grace.

The beauty is that the Fruit of the Spirit doesn’t grow all at once. It matures with time, discipline, and intimacy with God. Our job isn’t to force fruit to grow. It’s to stay connected to the Vine (John 15:5). We open our hearts, check our thoughts, guard our emotions, and choose actions that reflect Jesus—even when it’s hard.

So if you’ve been feeling like a rollercoaster lately, you’re not alone. But take heart—this isn’t a lost cause! You can reset. Ask yourself: Is what I’m thinking true? Are these feelings driving me closer to Christ or away from Him? Do my actions reflect His Spirit or my own pride? It’s a question I have been asking myself lately too.

Keep praying. Keep abiding. And in time, the fruit will come.

SK-

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