Explain Me

Well this is going to be right to the point! I was sent a YouTube video from my son, Tristan of all people. It explained my brain perfectly. I cried when I watched it because I related to every word and it was so perfectly explained. I cried because obviously I'm not fooling anyone... this … Continue reading Explain Me

So Close

So Close I can feel it It seems like if I do something wrong to someone it's a big deal? But if I'm hurt or wronged in someway then I'm just being dramatic? mmm? This is confusing to me.   I going to be real honest here. I can be jerk. This is NOT a … Continue reading So Close

Taken

As I look through these old pictures, I see just how different the paths are that we all took. Though days we thought would last forever, have end and so much sooner than I wished. It's though happy times that I want to hold on to. Before it got mean and bitter. I don't want … Continue reading Taken

My Medicine, My Faith

Saving my life one pill at a time I take medication to keep myself emotional and mental balanced. I'm not ashamed to say it. I know it's something that I need. This world can be a bit too much for a messy girl like me. God made me to be, empathic, emotional, convicted and loyal. … Continue reading My Medicine, My Faith

Lost Together

Us Together In This Place What a true damn mess of a disaster I have been. Before I start this blog, I need saying we found a house 🏠 ❤️ The brake-down I didn't think it was going to happen and my heart was really ready to take a break from looking anymore. Especially after … Continue reading Lost Together

Hi! My Name Is Contradiction

Feelings are messy little assholes! I am having a difficult time deciding if I should uploading my Vlog that I recored yesterday... because yesterday I was more emotional, messy and just a lot...a lot doesn't cover it. Today, I feel a bit better.... I'm different today and I don't why. I'm still a mess, that's … Continue reading Hi! My Name Is Contradiction

Happier

Music makes us feel things. It takes us back, helps us to process the madness in our minds. This song sparked something in me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7Bc3pLyij0   The Song Happier- Marshmello ft. bastille Have you ever heard a song and immediately been taken back to a time or place? All the feelings that you felt back … Continue reading Happier

Caught Up In My Head

      Being in totally recovery mode for as long as I have been gives you sufficient time to think...and think some more. Which truthfully has been a good thing (mostly). I have spent the last few months...8 months earlier or more trying not to think (too) deeply into things but you know me, … Continue reading Caught Up In My Head

What was I expecting?

  It's been 6 days since my surgery and I have say that I feel surprisingly well! It's such a bummer, I can't leap over tall buildings, lift a car with my bear hands or even sweep my kitchen floor!    In all seriousness, all my Endo pain is gone. I can move my hip … Continue reading What was I expecting?

Quotes & Verses

  These are just a few of the Bible verses and quotes I have been meditating on over the last few days, trying to keep my spirts up. Surgery count down is on...4 more days! Pre-Op appointment is tomorrow afternoon.    “God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in … Continue reading Quotes & Verses

My Favs

In a time where we read so many dislikes and pet peeves... which I have plenty of, I thought maybe I should share 20 of my favs. As most of you, that read my blog already know, I'm in bed a lot right now, in pain and awaiting my surgery in another week. This has … Continue reading My Favs

Fat Chick com’in through…

Ok...I'm warning ya'll right now, this post will be me beating myself up a bit. This is my very weird and unhealthy way of kicking my own ass in to gear. So here we go!    I don't know what happen to me today. Maybe it was catching a glimpse of myself in the background … Continue reading Fat Chick com’in through…