Night in the mist of writers block and a mind full of chaos I let it all out.
Well this is going to be right to the point! I was sent a YouTube video from my son, Tristan of all people. It explained my brain perfectly. I cried when I watched it because I related to every word and it was so perfectly explained. I cried because obviously I'm not fooling anyone... this … Continue reading Explain Me
Mind Control It's been a battle for me all my life to stay in control of my mind and not allow it to take over my body. For the most part, I know what path I should take to stay healthy and emotional sound but so many times I allow my mind to over … Continue reading Mind Control
So Close I can feel it It seems like if I do something wrong to someone it's a big deal? But if I'm hurt or wronged in someway then I'm just being dramatic? mmm? This is confusing to me. I going to be real honest here. I can be jerk. This is NOT a … Continue reading So Close
As I look through these old pictures, I see just how different the paths are that we all took. Though days we thought would last forever, have end and so much sooner than I wished. It's though happy times that I want to hold on to. Before it got mean and bitter. I don't want … Continue reading Taken
It was right there... How much I have taken for granted. I wanted to explore and see the world, to show my kids everything. To experience more than the boundaries that we knew. It all sounded so good. I wanted a place that I felt understood, a place that I fit in. The need … Continue reading There’s No Place Like Home
Saving my life one pill at a time I take medication to keep myself emotional and mental balanced. I'm not ashamed to say it. I know it's something that I need. This world can be a bit too much for a messy girl like me. God made me to be, empathic, emotional, convicted and loyal. … Continue reading My Medicine, My Faith
Us Together In This Place What a true damn mess of a disaster I have been. Before I start this blog, I need saying we found a house 🏠 ❤️ The brake-down I didn't think it was going to happen and my heart was really ready to take a break from looking anymore. Especially after … Continue reading Lost Together
Feelings are messy little assholes! I am having a difficult time deciding if I should uploading my Vlog that I recored yesterday... because yesterday I was more emotional, messy and just a lot...a lot doesn't cover it. Today, I feel a bit better.... I'm different today and I don't why. I'm still a mess, that's … Continue reading Hi! My Name Is Contradiction
Music makes us feel things. It takes us back, helps us to process the madness in our minds. This song sparked something in me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7Bc3pLyij0 The Song Happier- Marshmello ft. bastille Have you ever heard a song and immediately been taken back to a time or place? All the feelings that you felt back … Continue reading Happier
I hope this post finds you in a good place and an open mind. Be blessed.
It's been a minute since I've been able to Vlog at all! I decided to give it a very unprofessional go! It was a mess but hey, that's me! I've been a mental mess, a physical mess and an emotional mess...but still a faithful girl all the way! So wow okay! I don't … Continue reading Let’s Get Caught Up…
Being in totally recovery mode for as long as I have been gives you sufficient time to think...and think some more. Which truthfully has been a good thing (mostly). I have spent the last few months...8 months earlier or more trying not to think (too) deeply into things but you know me, … Continue reading Caught Up In My Head
It's been 6 days since my surgery and I have say that I feel surprisingly well! It's such a bummer, I can't leap over tall buildings, lift a car with my bear hands or even sweep my kitchen floor! In all seriousness, all my Endo pain is gone. I can move my hip … Continue reading What was I expecting?
These are just a few of the Bible verses and quotes I have been meditating on over the last few days, trying to keep my spirts up. Surgery count down is on...4 more days! Pre-Op appointment is tomorrow afternoon. “God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in … Continue reading Quotes & Verses
In a time where we read so many dislikes and pet peeves... which I have plenty of, I thought maybe I should share 20 of my favs. As most of you, that read my blog already know, I'm in bed a lot right now, in pain and awaiting my surgery in another week. This has … Continue reading My Favs
After receiving a few messages, asking me what's Endometriosis? I thought maybe I should write a post explaining. It's important to remember that I got these definition off the internet and Endometriosis, also known as Endo, affects every person differently. There are many people who have Endo right this minute and don't even know it … Continue reading What This Endo All About?
Well let me start by saying, I'm a damn mess! Pure and simple, I'm wrecked and if I didn't have the husband and amazing friend that I have, I don't know where I'd be! So thank you Jason and Katie...You guys are the Boom Diggity! Tuesday after I posted, Good … Continue reading My Pointless ER Trip
Warning: I just woke up and ... ya...sorry for my face. You're been warned! Every once in a while I get up before everyone else and I get to be totally alone. Well not totally alone and I didn't up get because I wanted to. I'm always with my sweet pup Ella, so I am … Continue reading Good Morning Party People
Ok...I'm warning ya'll right now, this post will be me beating myself up a bit. This is my very weird and unhealthy way of kicking my own ass in to gear. So here we go! I don't know what happen to me today. Maybe it was catching a glimpse of myself in the background … Continue reading Fat Chick com’in through…