How To Be Happy

How to be happy when you’re not a happy person? I have came to the realization that I can not be a happy person. I mean, I want to be but I am not. Everyone needs me to be happy, supportive and uplifting because that would make them more comfortable but I don’t think that…

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Hard To Breath #hillfire #santaanawinds

Santa Ana Wind https://www.google.org/publicalerts/alert?aid=127acaa8aa2b8d97&hl=en&gl=US&source=web https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Santa_Ana_winds I never realize what wind could do! I lived in North Dakota/ Minnesota before moving here. There were days the wind would howl at 60-70 mph for days and nothing really happened. Your hair would get messy, your front door decorations and all your flower pots would blow away but…

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Oh My Soul

The Consequence of Not Trusting God https://www.youversion.com/the-bible-app/ http://www.brittanyrust.com/ You will have moments of weakness that test your faith and commitment. Because we are not perfect chances are you will give into the weakness a time or two. Your flesh will decide to take the path of least resistance and the world will be your guide.…

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My Medicine, My Faith

Saving my life one pill at a time I take medication to keep myself emotional and mental balanced. I’m not ashamed to say it. I know it’s something that I need. This world can be a bit too much for a messy girl like me. God made me to be, empathic, emotional, convicted and loyal.…

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Lost Together

Us Together In This Place What a true damn mess of a disaster I have been. Before I start this blog, I need saying we found a house 🏠 ❤️ The brake-down I didn’t think it was going to happen and my heart was really ready to take a break from looking anymore. Especially after…

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Invisible Girl Living In An Alien World

I seem to be having a rough go of it. I live in a place that is entirely foreign to me. I feel like nothing makes sense here. It almost feels wrong to be here at times. Pasting people as I walk through the neighborhood here, I feeling like an unwelcome visitor. Every single day…

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You’re Gonna Be Ok Mom- Stop worrying

I hope this post finds you in a good place and an open mind. Be blessed.

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Change Is’a Coming…

Hey Now! California Bound! So many different thoughts and emotions as we get closer and closer to moving day. I’m overwhelmed with excitement and nerves. I think about how much I’ve grown and the person I am now compared to who I was before I moved here. So much is about to be different for…

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The Awesome Impact Award

What a surprise! What an honor! I can’t tell you how much this means to someone like me, who has just a small little blog, with a tiny little following to get recognized! This is simply the sweetest things! Okay! Let’s get down to business! I was nominated by the sweet and wonderful Racheal’s Novels.  I…

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Let’s Get Caught Up…

  It’s been a minute since I’ve been able to Vlog at all! I decided to give it a very unprofessional go! It was a mess but hey, that’s me! I’ve been a mental mess, a physical mess and an emotional mess…but still a faithful girl all the way!    So wow okay! I don’t…

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Lyric Challenge Day Three

We have now reached day 3 of the Lyric Challenge, the final day! I want to give a final thank you, thank you and super huge thank you to Parallax for nominating to be apart of this sweet challenge!  Please EVERYONE check out his blog! He’s incredible creative! You won’t be disappointed!    Well, here…

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Caught Up In My Head

      Being in totally recovery mode for as long as I have been gives you sufficient time to think…and think some more. Which truthfully has been a good thing (mostly). I have spent the last few months…8 months earlier or more trying not to think (too) deeply into things but you know me,…

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What was I expecting?

  It’s been 6 days since my surgery and I have say that I feel surprisingly well! It’s such a bummer, I can’t leap over tall buildings, lift a car with my bear hands or even sweep my kitchen floor!    In all seriousness, all my Endo pain is gone. I can move my hip…

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Quotes & Verses

  These are just a few of the Bible verses and quotes I have been meditating on over the last few days, trying to keep my spirts up. Surgery count down is on…4 more days! Pre-Op appointment is tomorrow afternoon.    “God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in…

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My Favs

In a time where we read so many dislikes and pet peeves… which I have plenty of, I thought maybe I should share 20 of my favs. As most of you, that read my blog already know, I’m in bed a lot right now, in pain and awaiting my surgery in another week. This has…

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What This Endo All About?

After receiving a few messages, asking me what’s Endometriosis? I thought maybe I should write a post explaining. It’s important to remember that I got these definition off the internet and Endometriosis, also known as Endo, affects every person differently. There are many people who have Endo right this minute and don’t even know it…

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My Pointless ER Trip

    Well let me start by saying, I’m a damn mess! Pure and simple, I’m wrecked and if I didn’t have the husband and amazing friend that I have, I don’t know where I’d be! So thank you Jason and Katie…You guys are the Boom Diggity!       Tuesday after I posted, Good…

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Good Morning Party People

Warning: I just woke up and … ya…sorry for my face. You’re been warned!   Every once in a while I get up before everyone else and I get to be totally alone. Well not totally alone and I didn’t up get because I wanted to. I’m always with my sweet pup Ella, so I am…

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Fat Chick com’in through…

Ok…I’m warning ya’ll right now, this post will be me beating myself up a bit. This is my very weird and unhealthy way of kicking my own ass in to gear. So here we go!    I don’t know what happen to me today. Maybe it was catching a glimpse of myself in the background…

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Pushing Through

    After 5 days of not being able to move or go outside, I finally pushed myself to just do it! There are some days I just can’t, the pain is too overwhelming. I feel like I will throw up everywhere and that’s such a bad look…really. I stay in bed with my heating…

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