How To Be Happy

How to be happy when you’re not a happy person? I have came to the realization that I can not be a happy person. I mean, I want to be but I am not. Everyone needs me to be happy, supportive and uplifting because that would make them more comfortable but I don’t think that…

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Hard To Breath #hillfire #santaanawinds

Santa Ana Wind https://www.google.org/publicalerts/alert?aid=127acaa8aa2b8d97&hl=en&gl=US&source=web https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Santa_Ana_winds I never realize what wind could do! I lived in North Dakota/ Minnesota before moving here. There were days the wind would howl at 60-70 mph for days and nothing really happened. Your hair would get messy, your front door decorations and all your flower pots would blow away but…

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California On Fire 🔥

This is will be a quick one. These pictures are at 2pm Thursday. We have been evacuated! We’re on the Hill Fire 🔥 side/ Thousand Oaks… it’s so sad. It’s overwhelming and confusing. We’ve never dealt with anything like this ever. I’m lost. I’m literally lost. I can’t find my way around on a normal…

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Oh My Soul

The Consequence of Not Trusting God https://www.youversion.com/the-bible-app/ http://www.brittanyrust.com/ You will have moments of weakness that test your faith and commitment. Because we are not perfect chances are you will give into the weakness a time or two. Your flesh will decide to take the path of least resistance and the world will be your guide.…

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There’s No Place Like Home

  It was right there… How much I have taken for granted. I wanted to explore and see the world, to show my kids everything. To experience more than the boundaries that we knew. It all  sounded so good. I wanted a place that I felt understood, a place that I fit in. The need…

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No Place To Call Home

The feeling a home gives you… So safe and secure. A place to laugh, learn, grow and share. It’s warmth on a cold night. A comfortable place to cuddle with your family. It’s celebrations and memories. It full tummies and good smells. A home is more than a shelter, it a place to grow a…

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My Medicine, My Faith

Saving my life one pill at a time I take medication to keep myself emotional and mental balanced. I’m not ashamed to say it. I know it’s something that I need. This world can be a bit too much for a messy girl like me. God made me to be, empathic, emotional, convicted and loyal.…

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Lost Together

Us Together In This Place What a true damn mess of a disaster I have been. Before I start this blog, I need saying we found a house 🏠 ❤️ The brake-down I didn’t think it was going to happen and my heart was really ready to take a break from looking anymore. Especially after…

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Hi! My Name Is Contradiction

Feelings are messy little assholes! I am having a difficult time deciding if I should uploading my Vlog that I recored yesterday… because yesterday I was more emotional, messy and just a lot…a lot doesn’t cover it. Today, I feel a bit better…. I’m different today and I don’t why. I’m still a mess, that’s…

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Invisible Girl Living In An Alien World

I seem to be having a rough go of it. I live in a place that is entirely foreign to me. I feel like nothing makes sense here. It almost feels wrong to be here at times. Pasting people as I walk through the neighborhood here, I feeling like an unwelcome visitor. Every single day…

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Happier

Music makes us feel things. It takes us back, helps us to process the madness in our minds. This song sparked something in me.   The Song Happier- Marshmello ft. bastille Have you ever heard a song and immediately been taken back to a time or place? All the feelings that you felt back then…

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You’re Gonna Be Ok Mom- Stop worrying

I hope this post finds you in a good place and an open mind. Be blessed.

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The Balance of Sunshine & Dirt

Deep thinking can be a incredibly dangerous place for me. I’ve always been someone who tends to overthink things and not always in the most positive of ways. I seem to always be looking for something, trying to fill the gap or hole but with what I’m never really sure. Yesterday I sent my kids…

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First Days of… Something

Today I sent them on their way. Today was their first day at a brand new school. Their anxiety was surely heightened! My daughter came to me with tears in her eyes this morning, telling me how nervous she was. You can tell from this picture that she’s a very outgoing girl. She has no…

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Home Sweet Temporary House

Everyone Is Content ❤️ We are finally settled in apartment! It’s beautiful! I drink my coffee as the early morning fog settles around the Santa Monica hills, the pups are at home in my bed as usual. The kids love all the places to walk to and the pool! This Place is nicer than any…

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Surprise Detour

Life Is An Adventure It would have it, that our Temp House lease won’t be starting till Friday, not Thursday as we had planned on. We decided to take this extra day to not rush, to not be overly stressed, exhausted and take a day to spend at the beach. The beach in our new…

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California Bound P.3

Wow! Today was crazy… and beautiful. The states we hit today were the end of Colorado, Utah, a Corner of Arizona and then Las Vegas, Nevada! We depend so much on our technology these days! We solely depend on our fancy Google and iPhone Maps to get us where we’re going! Sometimes these maps take…

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California Bound P.2

The Beautiful Colorado Rocky Mountains We were blessed enough to see the beautiful fall colors of the Rocky Mountains! There was so much to take pictures of, the beauty was overwhelming. We went through Idaho Springs, all the way to The town of Dillion into Grand Junction, Colorado. The views we absolutely stunning! The air…

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Cali Bound P.1

My Wray Fam ❤️ What a freaking emotional 😭 last few days! I don’t think my heart can handle much more! All of these goodbyes are so painful 😣 It’s all so much. My headache is never going to go away. I did have an amazing time visiting with my Aunt, Uncle, cousins and my…

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