My Sweetest Friend (youtube)

Best of friends before there was more. My sweetest friend, still and forever. Hurt feelings, painful words, loneness and crushing heartache takes it toll. You’re not the only one with insecurities. You’re not the only one who has fears that the other could just walk away. We love and we hurt. Then we fight and […]

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Encouragingly Hopeful

Encouragingly Hopeful       It’s been years since I’ve had a real hopeful feeling. Feelings of enjoyment, cheerfulness and being positive have been rare. Any confidence at all has been unusual in my world. I can actually pinpoint the times that I’ve felt that good-happy, optimism magical power! With that said, the last few […]

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Times Goes By

Goodbye to another year…     How times just whips by when I think about these babies. They said it would, I didn’t believe them at first. Those first weeks of sleepless nights dragged on into months of 1am dirty diapers, feedings and crying for both of us.  At the times it seemed like it […]

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The Bags I carry

      2 years In the last 2 years I’ve experienced somethings that have really changed my laugh and broken my smile…literally! Thank you Bell’s Palsy!  The amount of change, worry, fear, loneliness and control over every decision made over my life has really crippled me. I hate the person I have become. Never […]

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Unknowns

Unknowns The amount of unknowns in my life are at an all time high. If I told you I wasn’t concerned… that would be a complete and utter lie. The length of our to-do-list is beyond overwhelming. Figuring out a way to track this is completely consuming. It’s hard to know just where to begin, […]

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The Black Hole

The Black Hole Darker than the darkest black you are. Swallowing me whole and covering ever scar. Your intense pull is so great that nothing will ever escape you. It’s like a trap I Gravitate to you. You absorb everything around you and have become my center. I want to be the friction, be the […]

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Mother’s Day & Perspective 2019

Mother’s Day & Perspective       A Different Type Of Mother’s Day This Mother’s Day I would definitely describe as sweet and beautiful. Maybe even bittersweet at some points. I know a lot of effort was put into this Mother’s Day. It was hard to pull it together with our situation. Finances and expenses […]

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Change The Momentum

I’m just writing to y’all just like the old days 😉 I know that I’ve been kind of throwing up 🤮on y’all lately. My vibe has not been the best. 💔 I’m so appreciative to have this outlet. Writing has always been a good way for me to get things off my chest and out […]

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Excuse Me California

Excuse me California I’m just the outsider looking in. How the hell has God allowed this place to still spin? Casual errands, you greet strangers with a smile. Not here! You want that, you’ll be waiting awhile! Selfish, inconsiderate, lack of respect!The worst anywhere. Doesn’t matter what I think. No one really cares. Can you […]

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Don’t let me fall

Don’t let me fall Don’t let me fall Reach for me in the dark Let me know your here Don’t let me fall I’m still real close to edge Steady me when I’m unbalanced Don’t let me fall Reassure me I’m not alone in this fight Remind me who you are Don’t let me fall […]

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