Writing ✍️ Drought

Here I go again... I've been working on a blog call 2018 Review but at this rate by the time I publish it'll be 2019 review! One thing making this difficult, is my WordPress dashboard changed on me and I don't know how to work it now... thanks a lot for that! My photos won't … Continue reading Writing ✍️ Drought

Explain Me

Well this is going to be right to the point! I was sent a YouTube video from my son, Tristan of all people. It explained my brain perfectly. I cried when I watched it because I related to every word and it was so perfectly explained. I cried because obviously I'm not fooling anyone... this … Continue reading Explain Me

Solid Ground Chapter 4

Building A Solid Foundation Having ground rules for your child is so important. Following through with guidelines, consequences and keeping a steady, loving, safe environment for my kids is my goal always but it's work! Whether you're a single parent or not, being the parent that I want to be is something that I am … Continue reading Solid Ground Chapter 4

Mission Control

The Search is over. “The greatest fear that human beings experience is not death, which is inevitable, but consideration of the distinct possibility of living a worthless life.” ― Kilroy J. Oldster, Dead Toad Scrolls Mission: My Life I've always had a strange compulsion to keep moving, that nothing I do will ever be good enough. So I … Continue reading Mission Control

Today

Today I said a prayer for you. Today will be a better day for you. Today I held your hand a little longer than normal. Today I thought I'd love you a little harder. Today I noticed your laugh and put it on repeat in my head all day. Today I hope your laugh matches … Continue reading Today

Table for one

I'm sitting here at Denny's by myself and I'm good with! It's different, feeling alone and actually being alone. Being alone on Purpose is interesting. I'm taking everything in around. I wondering if I seem weird or sad to others, if they even notice me at all? I see a group of old retired men. … Continue reading Table for one

So Close

So Close I can feel it It seems like if I do something wrong to someone it's a big deal? But if I'm hurt or wronged in someway then I'm just being dramatic? mmm? This is confusing to me.   I going to be real honest here. I can be jerk. This is NOT a … Continue reading So Close

Taken

As I look through these old pictures, I see just how different the paths are that we all took. Though days we thought would last forever, have end and so much sooner than I wished. It's though happy times that I want to hold on to. Before it got mean and bitter. I don't want … Continue reading Taken

How To Be Happy

How to be happy when you're not a happy person? I have came to the realization that I can not be a happy person. I mean, I want to be but I am not. Everyone needs me to be happy, supportive and uplifting because that would make them more comfortable but I don't think that … Continue reading How To Be Happy

Hard To Breath #hillfire #santaanawinds

Santa Ana Wind https://www.google.org/publicalerts/alert?aid=127acaa8aa2b8d97&hl=en&gl=US&source=web https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Santa_Ana_winds I never realize what wind could do! I lived in North Dakota/ Minnesota before moving here. There were days the wind would howl at 60-70 mph for days and nothing really happened. Your hair would get messy, your front door decorations and all your flower pots would blow away but … Continue reading Hard To Breath #hillfire #santaanawinds

Oh My Soul

The Consequence of Not Trusting God https://www.youversion.com/the-bible-app/ http://www.brittanyrust.com/ You will have moments of weakness that test your faith and commitment. Because we are not perfect chances are you will give into the weakness a time or two. Your flesh will decide to take the path of least resistance and the world will be your guide. … Continue reading Oh My Soul