Well this is going to be right to the point! I was sent a YouTube video from my son, Tristan of all people. It explained my brain perfectly. I cried when I watched it because I related to every word and it was so perfectly explained. I cried because obviously I'm not fooling anyone... this … Continue reading Explain Me
This is me most days... I have written 5 different blog post and failed to post any of them. This isn't like me at all. I just can't seem to feel good enough about any of them to publish them. I've started sharing some of my poems that I have kept to myself. This has … Continue reading My Life At The Moment Chapter 1
How to be happy when you're not a happy person? I have came to the realization that I can not be a happy person. I mean, I want to be but I am not. Everyone needs me to be happy, supportive and uplifting because that would make them more comfortable but I don't think that … Continue reading How To Be Happy
It was right there... How much I have taken for granted. I wanted to explore and see the world, to show my kids everything. To experience more than the boundaries that we knew. It all sounded so good. I wanted a place that I felt understood, a place that I fit in. The need … Continue reading There’s No Place Like Home
Feelings are messy little assholes! I am having a difficult time deciding if I should uploading my Vlog that I recored yesterday... because yesterday I was more emotional, messy and just a lot...a lot doesn't cover it. Today, I feel a bit better.... I'm different today and I don't why. I'm still a mess, that's … Continue reading Hi! My Name Is Contradiction
I seem to be having a rough go of it. I live in a place that is entirely foreign to me. I feel like nothing makes sense here. It almost feels wrong to be here at times. Pasting people as I walk through the neighborhood here, I feeling like an unwelcome visitor. Every single day … Continue reading Invisible Girl Living In An Alien World
I hope this post finds you in a good place and an open mind. Be blessed.
At the doctors office for pre post-op. .......................................................................................................................................................................... I'm not sure what it is? Why I'm struggling to get my fingers moving again. I almost feel like I can't write or "go back to work" until my monsters...aka kids...go back to school. So much has happened. So much has changed and so much more … Continue reading Where’s My Writing Mojo?
In a time where we read so many dislikes and pet peeves... which I have plenty of, I thought maybe I should share 20 of my favs. As most of you, that read my blog already know, I'm in bed a lot right now, in pain and awaiting my surgery in another week. This has … Continue reading My Favs
After receiving a few messages, asking me what's Endometriosis? I thought maybe I should write a post explaining. It's important to remember that I got these definition off the internet and Endometriosis, also known as Endo, affects every person differently. There are many people who have Endo right this minute and don't even know it … Continue reading What This Endo All About?
Warning: I just woke up and ... ya...sorry for my face. You're been warned! Every once in a while I get up before everyone else and I get to be totally alone. Well not totally alone and I didn't up get because I wanted to. I'm always with my sweet pup Ella, so I am … Continue reading Good Morning Party People
Ok...I'm warning ya'll right now, this post will be me beating myself up a bit. This is my very weird and unhealthy way of kicking my own ass in to gear. So here we go! I don't know what happen to me today. Maybe it was catching a glimpse of myself in the background … Continue reading Fat Chick com’in through…
After 5 days of not being able to move or go outside, I finally pushed myself to just do it! There are some days I just can't, the pain is too overwhelming. I feel like I will throw up everywhere and that's such a bad look...really. I stay in bed with my heating … Continue reading Pushing Through
First let me start with MY DAD! This is me with my Daddy-o, way back in 1982 (maybe?). Our life wasn't perfect but then again who does has a perfect life? My Dad was and still is the biggest worrier you will ever meet. He's protective of my Mom, me and my sisters, he cares … Continue reading Father’s Day YO!
Vlog Part 1: Making good, sound decisions for my body is a top priority and right now it's stressing me the hell out! I can't sleep, I can't make plans for our summer! Am I having surgery? Am I just going to have to suffer through some side-effects from meds for a bit to solve … Continue reading This Uncertain Journey
Oh...Wow! So, let's get this straight! I write and do my vlog on being positive and how this truly is who I am. I seek out joy, laugher and just plain happiness to keep myself safe from the dark side and then I take a drive right off the cliff. Being the sponge that I … Continue reading Rising Up
I swear my head is all over the place today! I took out the coffee creamer and put it back three times before I ever used it today! What's wrong with me! I am just having a day! I can't seem to get my stuff together. It's not a bad day, just a weird, unorganized … Continue reading It’s Monday
Life is what you make it. I have my days too...just about everyday. But being this person...This upbeat, positive person is a good thing for my emotional and mental health. It's good for my family. I like me and I am okay if others don't. But still...I want everyone to be happy with me. I … Continue reading How It Really Is… (vlog)
June 1... I am so excited...I know, I keep saying that! But really...this is crazy exciting! I am really ready to connect with you all in such different and maybe "real" way for me. I love it and I can't wait! At the same time, I still have plenty of work to do! This … Continue reading This Journey’s Coming Together
What a process this crazy life can be. I have to work incredible hard to keep this positive attitude of love and joy, in full gear. After all, I am an empath... people and places can change my vibe in seconds and usually not for the better. Then you add in the fact that I … Continue reading Hope…5/1