How To Be Happy

How to be happy when you’re not a happy person? I have came to the realization that I can not be a happy person. I mean, I want to be but I am not. Everyone needs me to be happy, supportive and uplifting because that would make them more comfortable but I don’t think that…

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There’s No Place Like Home

  It was right there… How much I have taken for granted. I wanted to explore and see the world, to show my kids everything. To experience more than the boundaries that we knew. It all  sounded so good. I wanted a place that I felt understood, a place that I fit in. The need…

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Hi! My Name Is Contradiction

Feelings are messy little assholes! I am having a difficult time deciding if I should uploading my Vlog that I recored yesterday… because yesterday I was more emotional, messy and just a lot…a lot doesn’t cover it. Today, I feel a bit better…. I’m different today and I don’t why. I’m still a mess, that’s…

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Invisible Girl Living In An Alien World

I seem to be having a rough go of it. I live in a place that is entirely foreign to me. I feel like nothing makes sense here. It almost feels wrong to be here at times. Pasting people as I walk through the neighborhood here, I feeling like an unwelcome visitor. Every single day…

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You’re Gonna Be Ok Mom- Stop worrying

I hope this post finds you in a good place and an open mind. Be blessed.

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Where’s My Writing Mojo?

At the doctors office for pre post-op. ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..   I’m not sure what it is? Why I’m struggling to get my fingers moving again. I almost feel like I can’t write or “go back to work” until my monsters…aka kids…go back to school. So much has happened. So much has changed and so much more…

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My Favs

In a time where we read so many dislikes and pet peeves… which I have plenty of, I thought maybe I should share 20 of my favs. As most of you, that read my blog already know, I’m in bed a lot right now, in pain and awaiting my surgery in another week. This has…

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What This Endo All About?

After receiving a few messages, asking me what’s Endometriosis? I thought maybe I should write a post explaining. It’s important to remember that I got these definition off the internet and Endometriosis, also known as Endo, affects every person differently. There are many people who have Endo right this minute and don’t even know it…

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Good Morning Party People

Warning: I just woke up and … ya…sorry for my face. You’re been warned!   Every once in a while I get up before everyone else and I get to be totally alone. Well not totally alone and I didn’t up get because I wanted to. I’m always with my sweet pup Ella, so I am…

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Fat Chick com’in through…

Ok…I’m warning ya’ll right now, this post will be me beating myself up a bit. This is my very weird and unhealthy way of kicking my own ass in to gear. So here we go!    I don’t know what happen to me today. Maybe it was catching a glimpse of myself in the background…

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Pushing Through

    After 5 days of not being able to move or go outside, I finally pushed myself to just do it! There are some days I just can’t, the pain is too overwhelming. I feel like I will throw up everywhere and that’s such a bad look…really. I stay in bed with my heating…

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Father’s Day YO!

First let me start with MY DAD! This is me with my Daddy-o, way back in 1982 (maybe?). Our life wasn’t perfect but then again who does has a perfect life? My Dad was and still is the biggest worrier you will ever meet. He’s protective of my Mom, me and my sisters, he cares…

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Rising Up

Oh…Wow! So, let’s get this straight! I write and do my vlog on being positive and how this truly is who I am. I seek out joy, laugher and just plain happiness to keep myself safe from the dark side and then I take a drive right off the cliff. Being the sponge that I…

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It’s Monday

  I swear my head is all over the place today! I took out the coffee creamer and put it back three times before I ever used it today! What’s wrong with me! I am just having a day! I can’t seem to get my stuff together. It’s not a bad day, just a weird, unorganized…

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How It Really Is… (vlog)

Life is what you make it. I have my days too…just about everyday. But being this person…This upbeat, positive person is a good thing for my emotional and mental health. It’s good for my family. I like me and I am okay if others don’t. But still…I want everyone to be happy with me. I…

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This Journey’s Coming Together

  June 1… I am so excited…I know, I keep saying that! But really…this is crazy exciting! I am really ready to connect with you all in such different and maybe “real” way for me. I love it and I can’t wait! At the same time, I still have plenty of work to do! This…

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Hope…5/1

What a process this crazy life can be. I have to work incredible hard to keep this positive attitude of love and joy, in full gear. After all, I am an empath… people and places can change my vibe in seconds and usually not for the better. Then you add in the fact that I…

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Loyalty And Growth

  I just want you all to know how much I love this blog! I love my followers and I feel a loyalty to you all and fabricthatmademe. This blog is my baby in many ways. I have found such a strength, so much growth and an inner joy because of this sweet blog and…

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Be Soft

  My promise to me… I will not let this world harden me. I will not let people make me bitter, only better and wiser. No matter how much crap this life can throws at me, I won’t lose my compassion and tenderness for others. I will never let hate make me hate. I will…

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