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I reflect upon the past, which is a blanket of bittersweet memories. There is a covering that drapes over me for what once was, interwoven with an eager anticipation for the promises of what lies ahead.

The. Fabric. That. Made. Me.

Sometimes it hits me all at once—grief, change, and the growing pains of life. There’s a lot of hard in the world right now, but even in the mess, I still find pieces of hope, faith, joy, and deep-down gratitude.

I don’t want to relive every part of the past, but I do miss some of it. Moments now tucked away in fading photos and memories that time can’t return. What I really miss is the simplicity. The honesty. The way life felt before the weight of everything got so heavy. Busy.

I miss when homemade meant more than just food—it meant love. It meant family, and God, and care woven into everything we did. That’s the kind of fabric I want to hold on to—the stuff that made us who we were. Who I still want to be.

Learning to Live in Today

When I look ahead, I try not to go too far. Thinking too much about the future only brings anxiety I wasn’t meant to carry. So, I take it moment by moment—knowing the One who holds my days is already there, and that’s a freedom I can rest in.

I’m learning to stay present. To really be in the moment. What I have right now—my health, my home, my family, faith, love, even the simple things like food on the table—it’s enough. It’s a gift. It’s hard to do, but I try.

I don’t want to rush ahead or stay stuck in what’s behind me. I want to be here today, and trust that when it’s time to move forward, I’ll know. I’ll go. I’ll serve. I move even though it’s scary.

Not stuck in the past. Not overwhelmed by the future. Just showing up for today. It sounds so hard, by truly it’s how we were meant to live. “They” just don’t want to know that.

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