A Sacred Pause: Locking In with Jesus

I’m in a season.

If you’ve been reading and following my journey, thank you. You already know it’s been quite a ride-both rough and beautiful.

Over the past few months, so much has changed. The scenery has shifted with our moves-from temporary homes to what we thought might be a move to North Texas-then to being relocated to West Texas. In the middle of all that, our home base in South-Central Texas has been on and off the market. (And now goes back on the market this week!)

We’ve had highs and lows-graduations, milestones, moves, and traveling to and from Tennessee. We’ve carried joys and hurts that words can’t fully explain. There’s been job loss, family tension, health struggles, and financial challenges. Our family has been separated and stretched thin.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Psalm 34:18

But the biggest change of all has been my walk with Jesus.

He’s always been there, even when I wasn’t openly sharing about Him the way I do now. But something in me shifted. Maybe it was the mix of everything happening around me-or maybe it was hearing something that finally broke through, like a word from Charlie Kirk that hit my heart at the right time. It wasn’t just his words-it was his faith, and the fact that he was killed for it. That truth wrecked me. It made me realize I needed to change-to live differently, boldly, and without fear.

That moment broke me.

It made me see that nothing I do matters if it doesn’t glorify Jesus-period. I can’t be quiet or careful about that anymore. My only concern is God-my Father, my Lord, my King of Kings. If it’s not for Him, why am I doing it at all?

“Whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.”
1 Corinthians 10:31

So, with all that said, I want to let you know that I’ll be taking a break.

I’m not sure how long it will last-maybe a week, maybe a month-but I know this: I need to lock in with Jesus. Not every prayer or detail of my quiet time needs to be posted or shared, but I want you to know what led me here.

Because you matter to me.

This is a big season. My heart is troubled, and though I take my worries to God, lately my body has felt heavy. I have aches that prayer alone hasn’t lifted. I recognize it as anxiety building, creeping in taken over.

I’ve noticed myself growing irritable, reacting in ways that don’t feel like me. My spirit is weary. Even when I have every right to feel frustrated, my response isn’t who I want to be.

So, I laid in bed and prayed.

My Conversation with Jesus

Lord, I’m stressed. I trust that You’ve already taken care of everything, but I’m still worried.
My body is tired, my mind restless.
I’m trying to be okay for everyone else, but when they’re not okay, I’m not either.
I have no leader, yet I’m expected to lead with little control of the outcome. Where do I follow with no leader at the head? Sometimes I just need a place to rest, and I’m exhausted.
What do I do?

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28

I waited in the quiet-and He answered.

God asked:
What do you want? What’s most important to you?

This wasn’t a new question. God and I have talked about it before, but it’s developed over time.

I whispered back through tears:
I want to breathe Your name, Yahweh, with every breath-clean, crisp, and full of life. I want to feel the air You spoke into existence fill my lungs the way it was meant to be-pure and free.
I want to see Your Creation as You made it: the galaxies spinning in harmony, the stars and moon shining in perfect order, the sky stretching endless in color and light.
I want to walk through a world where the earth and every creature live together as You intended-peaceful, whole, and holy.
I want to feel the breath of life inside me, the mighty presence You gave to Adam when You first spoke life into dust.
I want to bow at Your feet in awe, surrounded by every being You’ve ever made, all of us worshiping You together.
I want to hear the story of Creation and Redemption told in Your own voice-the Bible, the beginning, every miracle, every act of love.
I want to sit with You, maybe share a cup of coffee, and simply be in the presence of the One who made it all.

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God said back to me plainly:
If you want that, you have to have faith that I am doing right by you.
If it’s the house you are in now, then that’s where you are meant to be.
And if it’s another place, you will know, because I will tell you at that time.
You will know if it’s for a long season or a short one, because I will tell you then.
All you have to do is take the day I give you and do your best with that day.
You will know what to do with that day because I will show you.
Have faith. Be locked in with Me, and I will direct you.

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I cried myself to sleep after that.

“Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.”
Psalm 119:105

Now you know why I need to step away-to be fully locked in, fully listening.

I bought a new prayer journal. It’ll be just Jesus and me for a while- locked in. When He tells me it’s time to create, write and share again, I’ll return. I love this space, and I love you all. I won’t be gone forever. But right now, I need to study and be still, pray, and hear Him clearly.

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One last thing I want to make absolutely clear:

If you’ve ever followed me on social media or fabricthatmademe, I hope you understand it’s always been about following Jesus. This space has never been about me. From beginning to end-it’s His. It’s simply a Testimony of His love and guidance in my life- even the ugly parts.

When you see the “Woven in the Fabric” area inviting you to follow or subscribe, please know this-it’s not about growing numbers or building a name. It’s about walking this journey together, learning, sharing, and lifting one another up in faith. I love having you here, but more than anything, I want you to follow Jesus!

Everything here – every post, every image, every word – is meant to point back to Jesus. He’s the reason, the center, the thread that holds it all together.

“Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.”
Psalm 150:6

I’ll check in from time to time.💛🪡🌿

Peace and prayer, always.
xoxo,
SK

“Be still, and know that I am God.”
Psalm 46:10

Woven in the Fabric

While I take this time to lock in with Jesus, I want to challenge you to do the same. Don’t just read about faith-live it!

Go to church.
Join a Bible study.
Serve someone.
Pray with a friend or a group.

We were never meant to walk this journey alone. Let’s be the Church-alive, active, and woven together in Christ.

If you need prayer, please reach out. You can share in the comments or send me a private message on my social or email. I’ll be praying faithfully for you, even while I’m on this pause.

In the meantime, you can still explore past posts here on fabricthatmademe and find encouragement over on Instagram @skfabric_303. I’ll keep posting reminders of God’s goodness and simple moments of faith until it’s time to return fully.

I’ll be back when the Lord says the time is right. Until then, stay rooted, stay faithful, and stay woven in His fabric.

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