A Life Reorientated: Learning to Walk in Faith Through Surrender

A Life Reorientated

What I have come to understand through this season of life is that this was never meant to be a “get to know me better” kind of journey.

It’s meant to be an on my knee, nothing left, true surrender to Jesus’ kind of thing.

Enough Has Always Been Enough

It has meant realizing God has giving me enough. It’s always been beautifully enough.🩷

I find myself saying thank you, not just for the good stuff but for the whole story. The simple gesture of thank you for loving me in every situation, in every mood, when I am sick or healthy, lost or right on time. Lord, You love me, faults and all. You continue to shape me as lean into what you have in store for me. Your portion for me has always been plenty enough and I am so deeply grateful.

Less of Me, More of Him

This season has been about thinking of myself less and mostly not at all. What I mean by that is staying out of my own head.

It’s been more about investing in others and paying closer attention to where Jesus moves me.

It is learning to listen more deeply to God’s decrement instead of my own noise in this needy, chaotic world. Being present in the moment right now.

I’ve come to realize that when I start thinking too much about myself, what I’m saying, what I’m doing, whether people will like me or understand me; I’m already in the wrong place. This walk of faith was never meant to keep me circling inward, learning more about myself, it was meant to lead me to know Him more deeply.

Less of me and more of Him.

Growth doesn’t happen in self-discovery mode for me; it happens in Him.

If anything, it’s that insecure and restless feeling that pulls me back into overanalyzing myself which is often a signal. It tells me I need to check my circle and the people I am around, what I am listening to and where I am standing. I might be in the wrong place. That’s usually my cue to pause, realign and return to where my faith is anchored, Jesus Christ.

Seeing Differently

I don’t want to be consumed with self, or this world, or what it says about me. I want to lean into Jesus and invest my time in serving, learning, and seeing the hearts of people around me.

There is something wild that beings to happens when you stop listening to the world, stop chasing your own wants, and start looking up instead. When you invest in The Word, explore what God is actually desires of you and rest in Him, everything beings to look different.

Situations that once felt like problems now feel like opportunities. Hard things no longer feel like wasted energy but growth. I don’t hyper-focuses on the past and dwell on it. What’s done is done and now I rise to the challenges of today. Life no longer dictates my entire mood or identity. Highs and lows are a part of being a human, and I find myself grateful even in the uncomfortable moments. Not because I know the outcome but because I know who is leading.

This isn’t about me at all. And somehow that brings peace, even through tears, and struggle. I know come what may… I will be okay.

Arise and Trust

I’m just a tiny piece of the puzzle. I go where God tells me to go. I don’t always understand but I trust.

“Arise, shine; for your light has come,
and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you.”
Isaiah 60:1

Still, I know I am loved beyond measure by God. Still held and still chosen. But I’m humble enough now to know I am but a vapor, broken, dependent and in need of His grace every day.

I’m here for God’s will, not my own control but to live a life that glorifies Jesus.

Guarding Wisdom and Peace

I’m deeply thankful for the life I have and the roles I carry. He has made me a daughter, wife, mother, sister and friend but most importantly I am His child. Those are big shoes and I want to honor my titles well.

I want to be ready to share His Word, reflect His love and follow where He leads at the moment He calls. With Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.

Knowing this I have to understand that there are just some places I can no longer stay to go where God is taking me and to protect what He has given me.

What I mean by that is; some people misunderstand on purpose. Confusion serves them. It allows nothing to resolved, nothing to be healed and it gives them leverage while leaving me drained.

Reentering conversations that I’ve already had is something I genuinely hate. I want clarity. I want to understand. I want unity and I want to move forward, peacefully. But the truth is, some people do not want that. Resolution is not their goal. They want miscommunication because it keeps attention on them in a way they control. It keeps they cycle alive for them.

At some point, I have to stop and ask; Did God already handle this? If He did, why am I returning to this same conversation again?

A fool does not want to be exposed. A gossiper or a perpetual victim seeks attention, not healing, not peace. Sometimes I believe Jesus is actively trying to protect us, but we fight that protection by reentering spaces He has already closed.

When the truth been revealed and nothing changes, walking away is not abandonment. It’s obedient. It is remembering that this is done and that this was never about me to begin with.

Scripture speaks clearly to this;

“Do not give dogs what is holy,
and do not throw your pearls before pigs,
lest they trample them underfoot
and turn to attack you.”
Matthew 7:6

And again:

“Do not answer a fool according to his folly,
lest you be like him yourself.”
Proverbs 26:4

Continuing to enter the same conflict over and over does not make you more patience or loving. It eventually makes you foolish too. Some people just hate the truth. Some people hate boundaries and that resistance is not your job to fix.

Silence is an action. Choosing to remove yourself is action and peace is not weakness. It’s brave.

I wrote about this in my last post and it bears repeating here, safety and peace matter. Not everyone needs access to God’s calling on your life, your home and your family. They don’t need to understand it. That covenant is between God and you.

A wise person will recognize and grow. Others will not and that is not your burden.

Guarding Your Heart and Your Home

Keep your heart safe for God, yourself and for your home. Remember that your home is a sacred place. Protect it. Guard it. Don’t let everyone in to know everything.

Replaying the past over and over again, the emotional wounds, the past conversations that didn’t go the way you wish they had, the I should have said this, or I should have done that, those things don’t heal. It doesn’t help your cause. It only hurts your future and drains your family.

That kind of mental and emotional looping steals peace from your home. It exhausts the people you love. And over time, it begins to shape the atmosphere you live in.

Your heart is the spring of life for your home. ❤️

What flows out of you has the power to give life or to poison the very people you say you love the most. That is why guarding your heart matters so deeply. Healing matters. Boundaries matter. Choosing peace matters.

When we allow unresolved pain, constant anxiety, or repeated emotional battles to live unchecked in our hearts, they don’t stay contained. They spill into our homes, our relationships, and our children. Protecting your heart is not selfish, it is stewardship. It’s faith in action.

So much of what we get wrapped up in doesn’t actually matter.

We fuel our hearts and minds with worries, fears, and imagined outcomes that are not real, when we could be free in Him instead. Free to experience His love. Free to trust. Free to let go of what God has already handled. Peace.

Peace is not passive. Guarding your heart is an act of faith. And choosing freedom in Christ is an act of obedience.

A Quiet Gratitude

As I finish up this January series on Walking with Faith, I walk away with so much gratitude, even for the struggle. I am wiser for sure.

2025 was a hard ride. I won’t pretend otherwise and I am happy to see it go. Yet there is so much I am better for because of it, the lessons learned, clearer minded, faith clarified.

A boring life sure looks nice, it sounds beautiful to me. This is what I call contentment, joy, and this is peace.

I can endure and God knows, I have been tested beyond what I knew possible. My self-control has been refined, and it has not been easy. It’s all been through God’s grace I am here right now writing this series.

I know I will stumble and stub my toe again. I will fall on my face time from time. But wow, I see patterns that trip me up along the way, the oversharing, overthinking, over worrying, and overprotecting. All the ways I tried too hard to manage what was never for me to carry.

Through it all, grace met me there. Support shows up and kind people walked along side me when I was tired and unsure. It has been amazing. I am still healing from the hardships of the last year, but it is beautiful to see how God has tended my heart, even after it was the wound.

I am made new.

“See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.”

And I believe that with my whole heart.

Woven in the Fabric

This writing …and this journey is rooted in Jesus. Every word shared here is a gift from Him and offered in faith and obedience. I am so thankful for it. If something in this writing reflection stirred your heart, I hope you’ll pass that encouragement on.

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– skelly

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