Balance, Faith, and Home

I’ve been in West Texas — my other home — for about a week and a half now. The adjustment has been okay. I’m getting around and doing my best to make this space feel like home, even without a permanent one yet. Living out of a suitcase and in the unknown is unsettling, but I’m holding on to trust — trusting Jesus and, even from afar, trusting my husband to lead. Some days that trust feels harder, because I don’t see him often. But that only presses me deeper into my faith.

Living with Pain, Not Complaint

The hardest part of this transition has been my body. As I’ve mentioned before, I live with fibromyalgia and migraines. Most people would never know; I’ve learned to hide it well. But this week the pain has gone deep — into my bones, into my core. I don’t remember feeling this bad in a long time. Maybe it’s the climate shift, maybe just the wear of moving, but either way it’s real, and it’s slowed me down.

I’ve learned, though, not to carry this silently. I tell the people around me, “Hey, I’m not feeling great right now.” Not everyone responds with patience or gentleness, and that’s okay. My responsibility is to be honest and then take care of myself. I don’t want a complaining spirit — I’ve seen what that looks like. What I want is to acknowledge the pain, name it, and keep moving toward healing.

Five Ways Back to Balance

When life feels uncertain, I return to simple routines and small disciplines that steady me. For me, it comes down to five steps:

• Rest. Give myself space to be still — to heal, pray, and recover. This is God-time, quiet moments with Jesus that restore my soul.
• Get back on my health track. My gut health matters. Clean eating, fresh nutrition, and plenty of water are where I start. My body is a temple, and the work begins in the gut.
• Clean my space. A cluttered space is a cluttered mind. When I clear my surroundings, I clear my energy.
• Get sunshine and fresh air. Sun and air are antiseptics for the soul. Even a short walk outside resets me. Enjoy God’s creation!
• Be creative. God gave us gifts to use. Writing is mine — it’s how I process, how I connect with the Holy Spirit, and how I feel renewed. Creativity lights me up.

I’m putting these steps into practice now — making this temporary space more comfortable for my husband, my son, my G, and for myself. Even though it’s not permanent (this apartment living), I want it to feel warm, safe, and familiar. When we walk through the door, I want it to smell like home, sound like home, and carry the comfort of home.

More Than a Move — A Spiritual Shift

This move has done more than scatter my routines; it’s changed me. Since January, we’ve been in transition — sometimes separated, always waiting for the next step. We’re weary, but hopeful. God has been at the center of it all. Total surrender has made this slow, sometimes painful process bearable. And the encouragement of people cheering us on has softened the loneliness of being here without many familiar supports.

The truth is, maybe the fatigue of being “unhomed” pushed me toward something deeper than tangible comforts. Or maybe it’s simply age and experience — the veil getting thinner, my eyes clearer. Either way, I can’t see the world the same. My writing has shifted too. Where faith was once a backdrop, now it’s center stage.

I’ve always loved Jesus. That’s never changed. But now my words reflect a bolder faith. I want to be closer to Him, knowing Him deeper. Sometimes I still feel far away, broken by my humanity — maybe that’s normal for a Christian. The journey doesn’t stop. There are moments I feel like I’ve had a “lightbulb” breakthrough, and then God shows me there’s another layer, another depth.

Time in my Bible, journaling, meditating on His Word — these haven’t just changed my feelings. They’ve changed me at a DNA-deep level. I don’t always have the perfect words for it, but I know I’m becoming — or maybe returning to — who I was always meant to be.

Christ at the Center

I’ve come to see that nothing matters apart from Christ, and everything that does matter is because of Him. My marriage, my children, my family, my friendships, my home, my writing — every good thing is His blessing. I place it all in His hands. Even the words I write belong to Him, offered back in gratitude and meant to glorify the Father.

If you’ve been reading me for a while, you’ve probably noticed the shift. My faith has always been here, but now it’s woven through everything — motherhood, health, friendships, creativity, even homemaking. Wherever life takes me, it always circles back to Jesus. Without Him, I’m nothing. With Him, I have everything. His grace is more than enough.

In the early days of my blog, I still wrote about Jesus and my faith, but it was more like a backdrop — always present, but not front and center. Things are different now. I’m writing more boldly, proclaiming the name of Jesus, sharing Bible verses, and speaking directly about salvation. And in doing that, I’ve lost many followers. Even stranger, my site has almost disappeared from SEO and Google searches and Goodreads. You can’t easily find fabricthatmademe.com anymore, and that was never a problem before I started openly confessing His name.

It hurts to see my blog suffer this way — no matter what plugins I add or what changes I make, the outcome looks the same: fewer people, less visibility. Still, I hold onto this truth: Jesus will never be unseen or unheard. His name cannot be hidden. So, I will keep saying His name and sharing the Word, my testimony, and the life He’s given me. I will pray harder, push more, and work however He asks me to. The right ones will find my little site, and I can’t wait to meet you. 💟

• Romans 1:16
  “For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile.”
• Matthew 10:32
  “Whoever acknowledges me before others, I will also acknowledge before my Father in heaven.”
• John 1:5
  “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.”
• Mark 16:15
  “He said to them, ‘Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.’”

In closing…

So even if my blog feels hidden, I know the Word of God never will be. I will keep writing, keep sharing, and keep proclaiming the name of Jesus here. My prayer is that these words meet the ones who need them most — the ones God Himself sends this way. Because His truth cannot be silenced, His light cannot be overcome, and His name will always be lifted high.

SK

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