Learning How to Walk Again in Faith

We live by faith, not by sight. – 2 Corinthians 5:7

Walking in Faith

Lately, my faith hasn’t looked very confidence. It’s looked more like learning how to place one foot in front of the other again. That is life.

I’ve never been overly loud in my faith with others, though in my head maybe a little. I’m not bold in the way people expect. I’m quiet, observant, and careful with my steps. It’s not because I’m unsure of myself it’s because I know myself, and I know truth well enough to understand how rarely I aligns with the world around me. I make people uncomfortable. My faith can do that.

I’ve held back at times when I want to speak, or act and it’s not because I am afraid. It’s discernment. I know what God has given me. The gift of knowing. Might make me seem a little crazy to the outside. I understand how that knowing makes me appear odd. Sometimes I feel that way! My confidence in walking in my faith isn’t easily explained, and I’ve learned to live with that.

There’s a strange push and pull that comes with all of this. People often gravitate toward me, while also studying me as if I’m unfamiliar…. like something they want but won’t expect. It can be very draining for me. To be a person that people want to around but also don’t understand and don’t necessarily care for either is both depleting and isolating. But in its own way humbling.

There have been many times in my life I wanted to get away, be alone. I like alone. But God would tell me to stay with the people even when I hated it. Ugh. I wasn’t confused by that forever, leaning into His voice, reading the Word. learning Scripture, having faith all helped me growing in relationship. It is why I understand it better now. My confidence in faith isn’t rooted in fitting in. It’s rooted in Jesus Christ, and in the quiet certainty that He placed this knowing in me on purpose. To be the observer, to listen, to heal and even take on. It on drains me at times… sure, but He renews every day.

Learning how to walk again in faith hasn’t meant becoming louder or more certain in my group of with people in this crazy upside-down world. It’s meant trusting, submitting to Jesus Christ, obedience in Him. It moves and flows. It’s a level of freedom I never knew before. I don’t have to rush ahead of God or translate what He’s given me into something more acceptable, more of anything. I just let it breath, I let it be what it is… perfect faith in Him. Walking again has meant letting faith be what it is steady, curious and passionately loved… even when it’s misunderstood. I cry out to Jesus often. Lord, here I am again. And He is already there.

I am someone who listens. I observe. I notice shifts in rooms, in conversations, in people. Sometimes when I do feel the urge to speak, it goes deeper than expected, and I feel the air change. Not everyone wants to go there. I’ve learned that. Opps!

It has taught me to pick my moments carefully and…. my people. I’ve come to understand that not everyone is willing or able to move beyond the surface. That doesn’t make them wrong. However, it does mean I don’t always belong in every conversation. They get what they need. I might not though.

Walking again in faith has meant accepting without resentment. That doesn’t mean accepting cruelty, harm, or bad behavior… even Jesus called those things out. What I am saying is Life will never be without it’s crushing blows.What it means is understanding that life will never be without its crushing blows. We live in a fallen world, and they will come.

Even so, I trust that God sees what I see, even when I remain quiet. I trust that He will take care of what I place in His hands. Obedience doesn’t always require me to be heard. Sometimes it requires staying faithful in restraint.

There have been moments when I’ve been told to move, to act, and I was ready. There have been other moments when I was told to wait, to rest, or to be still. Scripture shows us both. There are times to rise and times to remain. Faith is learning the difference and trusting God in each season.

My faith in Jesus Christ is confident. There is no doubt about that. Sometimes that confidence causes people to look at me sideways. I get it, I am going to say to weird thing. “Anyone notice the trails in the sky?”

Still, in my heart, I know Jesus walks with me wherever I go. My life bears witness to that truth. I think, at times, that knowing is why I struggle to remain quiet about certain things. There is a desire in me to speak up, to defend Jesus because He is the One who has protected me when others looked away. When others made excuses He gave me courage, strength, purpose, and love. I want to share the things that have changed my life, but not all eyes are ready see, not all ears are ready to hear. I know. Freedom is scary.

But I’ve learned something important in this season…. Learning to walking again in faith…God does not need me to fight for Him. He is not fragile, and His truth is not at risk. He is a might God! He invites me not because He lacks strength, but because He desires relationship. He wants me. He loves me.

What He asks of me now is not battle, but unrelenting faithfulness. To walk closely with Him. To trust Him. and to love in a way that reflects who He is. My confidence in Jesus doesn’t require proving my love or loyalty to Him, it requires abiding in love. The most important is always love. It’s always been love.

Woven in the Fabric

This writing… and this journey is rooted in Jesus. Every word shared here is a gift from Him, offered in faith and obedience in Him. I will forever be grateful to my Father in Heaven for this Gift. If something in this writing reflection stirred your heart, I hope you’ll pass that encouragement on. Please feel free to share it!

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– skelly