Night in the mist of writers block and a mind full of chaos I let it all out.
This is me most days... I have written 5 different blog post and failed to post any of them. This isn't like me at all. I just can't seem to feel good enough about any of them to publish them. I've started sharing some of my poems that I have kept to myself. This has … Continue reading My Life At The Moment Chapter 1
So Close I can feel it It seems like if I do something wrong to someone it's a big deal? But if I'm hurt or wronged in someway then I'm just being dramatic? mmm? This is confusing to me. I going to be real honest here. I can be jerk. This is NOT a … Continue reading So Close
How to be happy when you're not a happy person? I have came to the realization that I can not be a happy person. I mean, I want to be but I am not. Everyone needs me to be happy, supportive and uplifting because that would make them more comfortable but I don't think that … Continue reading How To Be Happy
It was right there... How much I have taken for granted. I wanted to explore and see the world, to show my kids everything. To experience more than the boundaries that we knew. It all sounded so good. I wanted a place that I felt understood, a place that I fit in. The need … Continue reading There’s No Place Like Home
Saving my life one pill at a time I take medication to keep myself emotional and mental balanced. I'm not ashamed to say it. I know it's something that I need. This world can be a bit too much for a messy girl like me. God made me to be, empathic, emotional, convicted and loyal. … Continue reading My Medicine, My Faith
Us Together In This Place What a true damn mess of a disaster I have been. Before I start this blog, I need saying we found a house 🏠 ❤️ The brake-down I didn't think it was going to happen and my heart was really ready to take a break from looking anymore. Especially after … Continue reading Lost Together
I seem to be having a rough go of it. I live in a place that is entirely foreign to me. I feel like nothing makes sense here. It almost feels wrong to be here at times. Pasting people as I walk through the neighborhood here, I feeling like an unwelcome visitor. Every single day … Continue reading Invisible Girl Living In An Alien World
Music makes us feel things. It takes us back, helps us to process the madness in our minds. This song sparked something in me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7Bc3pLyij0 The Song Happier- Marshmello ft. bastille Have you ever heard a song and immediately been taken back to a time or place? All the feelings that you felt back … Continue reading Happier
I hope this post finds you in a good place and an open mind. Be blessed.
Being in totally recovery mode for as long as I have been gives you sufficient time to think...and think some more. Which truthfully has been a good thing (mostly). I have spent the last few months...8 months earlier or more trying not to think (too) deeply into things but you know me, … Continue reading Caught Up In My Head
At the doctors office for pre post-op. .......................................................................................................................................................................... I'm not sure what it is? Why I'm struggling to get my fingers moving again. I almost feel like I can't write or "go back to work" until my monsters...aka kids...go back to school. So much has happened. So much has changed and so much more … Continue reading Where’s My Writing Mojo?
These are just a few of the Bible verses and quotes I have been meditating on over the last few days, trying to keep my spirts up. Surgery count down is on...4 more days! Pre-Op appointment is tomorrow afternoon. “God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in … Continue reading Quotes & Verses
After receiving a few messages, asking me what's Endometriosis? I thought maybe I should write a post explaining. It's important to remember that I got these definition off the internet and Endometriosis, also known as Endo, affects every person differently. There are many people who have Endo right this minute and don't even know it … Continue reading What This Endo All About?
Well let me start by saying, I'm a damn mess! Pure and simple, I'm wrecked and if I didn't have the husband and amazing friend that I have, I don't know where I'd be! So thank you Jason and Katie...You guys are the Boom Diggity! Tuesday after I posted, Good … Continue reading My Pointless ER Trip
Warning: I just woke up and ... ya...sorry for my face. You're been warned! Every once in a while I get up before everyone else and I get to be totally alone. Well not totally alone and I didn't up get because I wanted to. I'm always with my sweet pup Ella, so I am … Continue reading Good Morning Party People
Ok...I'm warning ya'll right now, this post will be me beating myself up a bit. This is my very weird and unhealthy way of kicking my own ass in to gear. So here we go! I don't know what happen to me today. Maybe it was catching a glimpse of myself in the background … Continue reading Fat Chick com’in through…
You know those goats that scream? It's pretty hilarious, right? But what if that was the sound you heard coming out of your husband face while he slept? Now add a freight train about to hit a screaming goat? That would be the painful sounds that I hear. I mean to be honest, … Continue reading Goat Face
After 5 days of not being able to move or go outside, I finally pushed myself to just do it! There are some days I just can't, the pain is too overwhelming. I feel like I will throw up everywhere and that's such a bad look...really. I stay in bed with my heating … Continue reading Pushing Through
First let me start with MY DAD! This is me with my Daddy-o, way back in 1982 (maybe?). Our life wasn't perfect but then again who does has a perfect life? My Dad was and still is the biggest worrier you will ever meet. He's protective of my Mom, me and my sisters, he cares … Continue reading Father’s Day YO!