I can’t decide if it’s the lack of control, I feel over my own life or the need that I have to be controlling in general? Or is it simply all the changes I am witnessing; happening so rapidly that my mind can’t adjust to them…won’t except them? It feels wrong. Like telling a lie. Back When… Most […]
Freedom only comes when you forgive and the boat sailed months ago. Now it’s time to get some closure and I feel like I’m ready for that. Peace is washing over me and feels good. God has a plan and I fully trust in that. #INHIM #FORGIVE #ATPEACE #WITHORWITHOUTYOU #ILLANSWERTHECALL
I have been going through… a lot. I sat here in the dark and stared at this blank screen for an hour and that’s all I could do. I’ve been awake since 1am, now it’s 4am, I can’t seem to sleep. Sleep doesn’t happen too often. I think far too much and turning my brain off is difficult. Why? […]
Going Home… Welcome To Colorful Colorado A Hometown State of Mind is just what I need to get centered… the get back to the fabric that made me. I was sitting here trying to recall my last visit home? It’s sad that actually I can’t remember. Christmas in 2017 we went as a family and it was a rushed trip! My anxiety […]
Goodbye to another year… How times just whips by when I think about these babies. They said it would, I didn’t believe them at first. Those first weeks of sleepless nights dragged on into months of 1am dirty diapers, feedings and crying for both of us. At the times it seemed like it was going to be that […]
Mother’s Day & Perspective A Different Type Of Mother’s Day This Mother’s Day I would definitely describe as sweet and beautiful. Maybe even bittersweet at some points. I know a lot of effort was put into this Mother’s Day. It was hard to pull it together with our situation. Finances and expenses here in California have been […]
You wouldn’t last a day In My Shoes… It’s easy to do my inventory from where you stand. The view sure looks different from where you are. How quickly we forget our own dirty little secrets. You have no clue why I do what I do. There’s not a chance you’d last a day In My Shoes. Now try for […]
