Today

Today I said a prayer for you. Today will be a better day for you. Today I held your hand a little longer than normal. Today I thought I'd love you a little harder. Today I noticed your laugh and put it on repeat in my head all day. Today I hope your laugh matches … Continue reading Today

Table for one

I'm sitting here at Denny's by myself and I'm good with! It's different, feeling alone and actually being alone. Being alone on Purpose is interesting. I'm taking everything in around. I wondering if I seem weird or sad to others, if they even notice me at all? I see a group of old retired men. … Continue reading Table for one

Caught Up In My Head

      Being in totally recovery mode for as long as I have been gives you sufficient time to think...and think some more. Which truthfully has been a good thing (mostly). I have spent the last few months...8 months earlier or more trying not to think (too) deeply into things but you know me, … Continue reading Caught Up In My Head

How It Really Is… (vlog)

Life is what you make it. I have my days too...just about everyday. But being this person...This upbeat, positive person is a good thing for my emotional and mental health. It's good for my family. I like me and I am okay if others don't. But still...I want everyone to be happy with me. I … Continue reading How It Really Is… (vlog)

Finding Me, Losing My People

  Prison I stand in my place. Right where you need me to be. This life sentence that was handed to us is hard. I want to escape with you. Be free of guilt, pain, shame and doubt. But you have grown comfortable here. I have never left you to sit in the past alone. … Continue reading Finding Me, Losing My People

Who Am I Anymore

"Why am I a person?" My daughter ask. "God decided that you needed to be this person, just who you are", I answered back. "Why did He not make me a dog or a table or someone else?" "Why am I Grace?" "Because there was already plenty of sassy puppies and no table could embrace … Continue reading Who Am I Anymore

Recovering

Finding my center I know all the self-care tricks...let's be real about this... I've been at this mental health game for awhile now. You know, picking myself back up after a emotion slip up. I know all the different mindful tricks in the book by now and I agree that most work. I also know … Continue reading Recovering

Empath & Our Language Power

An Unwell Mind... Unproductive, bitter, grumpy, lethargic, irritable, frustrated, disappointed, hopeless, heartbroken, paranoid, uncertain, apprehensive, concerned, discouraged, disconnected, aggravated, abandoned, utterly sad, emotionless, rejected, cranky... these are just a few of the words to describes my relentless mind/emotions in the last week. I did NOT like myself!   It's hopeless...Everyday you wake up, pour yourself … Continue reading Empath & Our Language Power