The Bags I carry

      2 years In the last 2 years I’ve experienced somethings that have really changed my laugh and broken my smile…literally! Thank you Bell’s Palsy!  The amount of change, worry, fear, loneliness and control over every decision made over my life has really crippled me. I hate the person I have become. Never […]

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Unknowns

Unknowns The amount of unknowns in my life are at an all time high. If I told you I wasn’t concerned… that would be a complete and utter lie. The length of our to-do-list is beyond overwhelming. Figuring out a way to track this is completely consuming. It’s hard to know just where to begin, […]

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Excuse Me California

Excuse me California I’m just the outsider looking in. How the hell has God allowed this place to still spin? Casual errands, you greet strangers with a smile. Not here! You want that, you’ll be waiting awhile! Selfish, inconsiderate, lack of respect!The worst anywhere. Doesn’t matter what I think. No one really cares. Can you […]

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Don’t let me fall

Don’t let me fall Don’t let me fall Reach for me in the dark Let me know your here Don’t let me fall I’m still real close to edge Steady me when I’m unbalanced Don’t let me fall Reassure me I’m not alone in this fight Remind me who you are Don’t let me fall […]

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Telling Dreams

Backseat Driver I have been having some heavy dreams lately. Every morning I’ll look up my telling dreams and see what’s going on in my subconscious mind. The last few nights have been this: I’m in my truck that Jason has been making plans to get rid of. I’m trying to drive it a lot […]

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Spring Break Won’t Break Me

Long Breaks Mentally Challenge Me Spring break is one of the times we all have some expectations. Some people expect to go on some type of Vacation, be able to sleep in, relax on a beach or have some type of adventure. Maybe some people prefer to stay home and never leave the house and […]

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First Day On The JOB

Okay, I woke up not happy about this but I’m doing it, my first day. A new job, going back to work! It scares me because I don’t want to be overwhelmed with everyone’s life all alone again. I’ve been in this place before but not like this… not this alone. I’m on my way […]

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