The breakdown in this family started with me. I’m tried and I took a break. There’s no breaks in motherhood.
Today I said a prayer for you. Today will be a better day for you. Today I held your hand a little longer than normal. Today I thought I'd love you a little harder. Today I noticed your laugh and put it on repeat in my head all day. Today I hope your laugh matches … Continue reading Today
I'm sitting here at Denny's by myself and I'm good with! It's different, feeling alone and actually being alone. Being alone on Purpose is interesting. I'm taking everything in around. I wondering if I seem weird or sad to others, if they even notice me at all? I see a group of old retired men. … Continue reading Table for one
So Close I can feel it It seems like if I do something wrong to someone it's a big deal? But if I'm hurt or wronged in someway then I'm just being dramatic? mmm? This is confusing to me. I going to be real honest here. I can be jerk. This is NOT a … Continue reading So Close
It was right there... How much I have taken for granted. I wanted to explore and see the world, to show my kids everything. To experience more than the boundaries that we knew. It all sounded so good. I wanted a place that I felt understood, a place that I fit in. The need … Continue reading There’s No Place Like Home
Music makes us feel things. It takes us back, helps us to process the madness in our minds. This song sparked something in me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7Bc3pLyij0 The Song Happier- Marshmello ft. bastille Have you ever heard a song and immediately been taken back to a time or place? All the feelings that you felt back … Continue reading Happier
I'm trying to use a new video recording app... please be patient with me! I'm still here guys!!! I'm just not tech savvy at all! 😬 I'm planning on blogging/vlogging our journey to California! Hope you'll join us! ❤️ Xoxo sk
It's been a minute since I've been able to Vlog at all! I decided to give it a very unprofessional go! It was a mess but hey, that's me! I've been a mental mess, a physical mess and an emotional mess...but still a faithful girl all the way! So wow okay! I don't … Continue reading Let’s Get Caught Up…
Being in totally recovery mode for as long as I have been gives you sufficient time to think...and think some more. Which truthfully has been a good thing (mostly). I have spent the last few months...8 months earlier or more trying not to think (too) deeply into things but you know me, … Continue reading Caught Up In My Head
At the doctors office for pre post-op. .......................................................................................................................................................................... I'm not sure what it is? Why I'm struggling to get my fingers moving again. I almost feel like I can't write or "go back to work" until my monsters...aka kids...go back to school. So much has happened. So much has changed and so much more … Continue reading Where’s My Writing Mojo?
After receiving a few messages, asking me what's Endometriosis? I thought maybe I should write a post explaining. It's important to remember that I got these definition off the internet and Endometriosis, also known as Endo, affects every person differently. There are many people who have Endo right this minute and don't even know it … Continue reading What This Endo All About?
First let me start with MY DAD! This is me with my Daddy-o, way back in 1982 (maybe?). Our life wasn't perfect but then again who does has a perfect life? My Dad was and still is the biggest worrier you will ever meet. He's protective of my Mom, me and my sisters, he cares … Continue reading Father’s Day YO!
I am honestly not sure if I have the worst allergies I have ever had in my life or if I just have a nice combo of pure stress and anxiety on top on the worst allergies that I've ever had in my life. I am telling ya'll, the right side of my face is deformed. … Continue reading Twitchy Eye
Day 1 since my attack... I am doing better today. I spelt alright last night...not great just better then the night before. I had my diffuser going all night and essential oils all over me. My anxiety is giving me a breather right now, which I am thankful because The Good Lord knows that I … Continue reading Getting On My Feet…Again
I swear my head is all over the place today! I took out the coffee creamer and put it back three times before I ever used it today! What's wrong with me! I am just having a day! I can't seem to get my stuff together. It's not a bad day, just a weird, unorganized … Continue reading It’s Monday
Life is what you make it. I have my days too...just about everyday. But being this person...This upbeat, positive person is a good thing for my emotional and mental health. It's good for my family. I like me and I am okay if others don't. But still...I want everyone to be happy with me. I … Continue reading How It Really Is… (vlog)
What a process this crazy life can be. I have to work incredible hard to keep this positive attitude of love and joy, in full gear. After all, I am an empath... people and places can change my vibe in seconds and usually not for the better. Then you add in the fact that I … Continue reading Hope…5/1
I just want you all to know how much I love this blog! I love my followers and I feel a loyalty to you all and fabricthatmademe. This blog is my baby in many ways. I have found such a strength, so much growth and an inner joy because of this sweet blog and … Continue reading Loyalty And Growth
Can You Imagine? What if we all considered each other before ourselves? What if? I know this is may blow some people's minds but the universe doesn't revolve around you. Crazy right? We all have issues, fears, hang ups and serious faults. All of us are struggling in someway! You're not the only person in … Continue reading Gentle One
Standing Tall in the midst of everything. This last week was painfully hard. I want so badly to write about it and share....(oh to get it off my chest would be amazing) what's happening in my family and even more personally to me but unfortunately it could cause a chain reaction, that's not positive. I … Continue reading Standing Tall…