So Close

So Close I can feel it It seems like if I do something wrong to someone it's a big deal? But if I'm hurt or wronged in someway then I'm just being dramatic? mmm? This is confusing to me.   I going to be real honest here. I can be jerk. This is NOT a … Continue reading So Close

Taken

As I look through these old pictures, I see just how different the paths are that we all took. Though days we thought would last forever, have end and so much sooner than I wished. It's though happy times that I want to hold on to. Before it got mean and bitter. I don't want … Continue reading Taken

Oh My Soul

The Consequence of Not Trusting God https://www.youversion.com/the-bible-app/ http://www.brittanyrust.com/ You will have moments of weakness that test your faith and commitment. Because we are not perfect chances are you will give into the weakness a time or two. Your flesh will decide to take the path of least resistance and the world will be your guide. … Continue reading Oh My Soul

Caught Up In My Head

      Being in totally recovery mode for as long as I have been gives you sufficient time to think...and think some more. Which truthfully has been a good thing (mostly). I have spent the last few months...8 months earlier or more trying not to think (too) deeply into things but you know me, … Continue reading Caught Up In My Head

Fat Chick com’in through…

Ok...I'm warning ya'll right now, this post will be me beating myself up a bit. This is my very weird and unhealthy way of kicking my own ass in to gear. So here we go!    I don't know what happen to me today. Maybe it was catching a glimpse of myself in the background … Continue reading Fat Chick com’in through…

How It Really Is… (vlog)

Life is what you make it. I have my days too...just about everyday. But being this person...This upbeat, positive person is a good thing for my emotional and mental health. It's good for my family. I like me and I am okay if others don't. But still...I want everyone to be happy with me. I … Continue reading How It Really Is… (vlog)

High Jacked

You know when you're doing really good! Your workouts are on point, your eating well, feeling happy, the family is doing good and the house is taking care of...I'm on top of it. I'm feeling like a rock star! Then one day that achy pain that's been nagging me forever is more then just a … Continue reading High Jacked

Lost Not Yet Found

Lost Not Found I don’t know. I feel like I am aching for something that doesn't exist. I am missing some apart of myself. I miss a place that I have never been but yet, I know this place well. It’s my comfort and security. It’s familiar to me somehow. I feel safe there, complete. … Continue reading Lost Not Yet Found

Recovering

Finding my center I know all the self-care tricks...let's be real about this... I've been at this mental health game for awhile now. You know, picking myself back up after a emotion slip up. I know all the different mindful tricks in the book by now and I agree that most work. I also know … Continue reading Recovering

Empath & Our Language Power

An Unwell Mind... Unproductive, bitter, grumpy, lethargic, irritable, frustrated, disappointed, hopeless, heartbroken, paranoid, uncertain, apprehensive, concerned, discouraged, disconnected, aggravated, abandoned, utterly sad, emotionless, rejected, cranky... these are just a few of the words to describes my relentless mind/emotions in the last week. I did NOT like myself!   It's hopeless...Everyday you wake up, pour yourself … Continue reading Empath & Our Language Power

The Road… Results p.3

There just comes a day when you have to decide which way you want to go and then you have to start moving. You want that day to come. It's a good thing... and my day has came.  When all your worlds come crashing into each other... Most likely we all can relate to wanting … Continue reading The Road… Results p.3

The Road… Anxiety P.2

 What is that? The sound in the silences. That small noises that grows louder and louder. It's becoming threatening now. I'm in danger! What is it? Why is it so overwhelming to me? This small sound that my mind has picked out of the silence. I laid quietly in my bed, peaceful and calm. But … Continue reading The Road… Anxiety P.2

The Road… today’s the day

Last night was rough. My bones hurts, my head hurt and chest was tight. Surgery day is upon us. I have been overwhelmed with fear and feeling the body aches the way I did last night sure didn't help my mind set. Sleeping through it was the best I could do. My  dreams were more … Continue reading The Road… today’s the day