There’s No Place Like Home

  It was right there… How much I have taken for granted. I wanted to explore and see the world, to show my kids everything. To experience more than the boundaries that we knew. It all  sounded so good. I wanted a place that I felt understood, a place that I fit in. The need…

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Lost Together

Us Together In This Place What a true damn mess of a disaster I have been. Before I start this blog, I need saying we found a house 🏠 ❤️ The brake-down I didn’t think it was going to happen and my heart was really ready to take a break from looking anymore. Especially after…

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Let’s Get Caught Up…

  It’s been a minute since I’ve been able to Vlog at all! I decided to give it a very unprofessional go! It was a mess but hey, that’s me! I’ve been a mental mess, a physical mess and an emotional mess…but still a faithful girl all the way!    So wow okay! I don’t…

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Caught Up In My Head

      Being in totally recovery mode for as long as I have been gives you sufficient time to think…and think some more. Which truthfully has been a good thing (mostly). I have spent the last few months…8 months earlier or more trying not to think (too) deeply into things but you know me,…

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Where’s My Writing Mojo?

At the doctors office for pre post-op. ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..   I’m not sure what it is? Why I’m struggling to get my fingers moving again. I almost feel like I can’t write or “go back to work” until my monsters…aka kids…go back to school. So much has happened. So much has changed and so much more…

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Quotes & Verses

  These are just a few of the Bible verses and quotes I have been meditating on over the last few days, trying to keep my spirts up. Surgery count down is on…4 more days! Pre-Op appointment is tomorrow afternoon.    “God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in…

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What This Endo All About?

After receiving a few messages, asking me what’s Endometriosis? I thought maybe I should write a post explaining. It’s important to remember that I got these definition off the internet and Endometriosis, also known as Endo, affects every person differently. There are many people who have Endo right this minute and don’t even know it…

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My Pointless ER Trip

    Well let me start by saying, I’m a damn mess! Pure and simple, I’m wrecked and if I didn’t have the husband and amazing friend that I have, I don’t know where I’d be! So thank you Jason and Katie…You guys are the Boom Diggity!       Tuesday after I posted, Good…

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Fat Chick com’in through…

Ok…I’m warning ya’ll right now, this post will be me beating myself up a bit. This is my very weird and unhealthy way of kicking my own ass in to gear. So here we go!    I don’t know what happen to me today. Maybe it was catching a glimpse of myself in the background…

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Father’s Day YO!

First let me start with MY DAD! This is me with my Daddy-o, way back in 1982 (maybe?). Our life wasn’t perfect but then again who does has a perfect life? My Dad was and still is the biggest worrier you will ever meet. He’s protective of my Mom, me and my sisters, he cares…

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Twitchy Eye

I am honestly not sure if I have the worst allergies I have ever had in my life or if I just have a nice combo of pure stress and anxiety on top on the worst allergies that I’ve ever had in my life. I am telling ya’ll, the right side of my face is deformed.…

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I’m that Mom…

Am I awful? I hate having my kids in a bunch of activities. My friend is probably the best Mom that ever lived. Her kids are in multiple things, she keeps track of what they’re watching on TV and she doesn’t cuss around them. Seriously, she’s my hero! Did I mention that she makes them…

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Getting On My Feet…Again

Day 1 since my attack… I am doing better today. I spelt alright last night…not great just better then the night before. I had my diffuser going all night and essential oils all over me. My anxiety is giving me a breather right now, which I am thankful because The Good Lord knows that I…

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It’s Monday

  I swear my head is all over the place today! I took out the coffee creamer and put it back three times before I ever used it today! What’s wrong with me! I am just having a day! I can’t seem to get my stuff together. It’s not a bad day, just a weird, unorganized…

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How It Really Is… (vlog)

Life is what you make it. I have my days too…just about everyday. But being this person…This upbeat, positive person is a good thing for my emotional and mental health. It’s good for my family. I like me and I am okay if others don’t. But still…I want everyone to be happy with me. I…

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This Journey’s Coming Together

  June 1… I am so excited…I know, I keep saying that! But really…this is crazy exciting! I am really ready to connect with you all in such different and maybe “real” way for me. I love it and I can’t wait! At the same time, I still have plenty of work to do! This…

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Hope…5/1

What a process this crazy life can be. I have to work incredible hard to keep this positive attitude of love and joy, in full gear. After all, I am an empath… people and places can change my vibe in seconds and usually not for the better. Then you add in the fact that I…

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I’m Still Here

June 1…

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Loyalty And Growth

  I just want you all to know how much I love this blog! I love my followers and I feel a loyalty to you all and fabricthatmademe. This blog is my baby in many ways. I have found such a strength, so much growth and an inner joy because of this sweet blog and…

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Be Soft

  My promise to me… I will not let this world harden me. I will not let people make me bitter, only better and wiser. No matter how much crap this life can throws at me, I won’t lose my compassion and tenderness for others. I will never let hate make me hate. I will…

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