The world is a messy place and you would think that we would all start to take a deeper look at what’s most important in times like this…You would think? I’m not sure that my family will ever be put back together the way I wish it was. I may never have the close friendships that I once shared. I may never reach every goal that I set for myself or heal every wound that I have, or even those I may have caused others for that matter. But one thing I have managed to do is gain some inner peace in the chaos. And as “hippie” and weird as that may sound in these times we’re living in right now. Especially with “Karen” buying up all the toilet paper and basically everyone’s stocking up for the end of times…I don’t feel the urgency. I feel plenty of things right now but not rushed or panicky. I do feel a little bit of sadness and disappointment for sure but mostly I just have peace. I know that God is fully aware of what is happening. He see it all and knew this was going to happen. He knew that everyone was going to lose their minds and not listen to reason, not be still in Him, not trust in Him. He knew it. He has a great master plan and although I have no clue what it is…I do trust whatever it is…including the discomfort it might bring me. I have already been through the ringer. God has made me increible resilient, an overcomer, stronger than most, a problem solver and so that is why I am not afraid. Sure, I am sad. I’m sad my kids can’t enroll in their new schools as planned and this already weird transition is a little weirder… but that’s okay. I know it sucks, this will make making friends more difficult and I don’t like that for them but we will work through it together as we have through every other weird and difficult transition we have had to make before. I’m disappointed and sad that buying our house is so complicated and my husband is struggling to be so much for everyone. In his words his brain he “just one big box” and can only handle one thing at a time but he is doing great with the massive amount of changes and obstacles we have in front of us. Still, I hate that we need each other “sometimes” to be MORE than we’re capable of at times and dump on each other… it’s unfair. We’ve been stretched thin for what feels like years and I hate that for both of us! Now you add a global pandemic to the mix but we just have to deal with it and have faith. With Faith comes freedom and instead of dumping on each other we have to just have each others back through this, walk alongside one another. I’m sad therefor the people who really need food and medicine don’t have it because of the people who have been fear shopping and hoarding away more than what they need and it’s a damn shame…I shake my head. I’m ashamed of us people for how stupid and selfish we can be…We live in fear, entitlement and we care for no one but ourselves too often. It’s so sad. If your family is one of the families out of essentials right now or out of work or even out of both…I am so sorry and I am so praying for you and your family. It breaks my heart. I want to say I know there are stories of kindness and giving and love too. I have a heard a few of those stories also. Only two stories right now that have been on my social feed that I have came across and I want to share them. Although these stores might not seem like much, we need all the kindness we can get right now. *I believe the first one was out of California where a young man went to the local grocery store to buy just a few things but obviously there was nothing in the store. A women saw the man struggling to get his hands on anything and told him that she had the last packet of a small, 4 pack of toilet paper. She would buy it and spilt with him. He told her he would be okay without it but the man was so impressed and humbled by her kindness and concern, considering the large amounts of people around him that were rushing out of the store with loaded carts, no regard for anyone else. *The other story I read was about a young women, I believe maybe in her 20’s. She was in the parking lot of a grocery store and heard yelling from a woman in a car nearby. As the young women approached the car of the yelling women she saw that it was an elderly couple in their 80’s. With their car window cracked open the old lady explained that they had no family to help them and they were fearful of going in the store and getting sick. The young women told them she would shop for them and the couple handed her $100 cash through the cracked window. That couple had been sitting in that car waiting for help for over 45 minutes before that wonderful women showed up to help that couple and thank God she did! **Also I believe I read DisneyWorld and DisneyLand are donating their excess food they had since being closed down to Second Harvest Food Bank in Orange County CA. I hope more Food industries are doing things like this. If anyone else hears of more kindness in the middle of this chaos, I hope we all start writing about it, sharing it! The media can be terrible, they want us scared and turning on each other. Let’s do something different then the norm. There is absolutely nothing wrong with taking care of your family. I would fight to the death for mine. I don’t want this post to come off like it’s selfish to feed your own family…it’s not at all. I just wish we trusted in the ONE who created us more. I wish we were all kinder to each other. It would make tough time easier to go though…that’s all. Psalm 46:10 ESV “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” Matthew 6:25 ESV “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Hebrews 13:8 ESV Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. Romans 8:28 ESV And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. Psalm 112:7 ESV He is not afraid of bad news; his heart is firm, trusting in the Lord. Joshua 1:9 ESV Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Proverbs 3:6 ESV In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. John 14:1 ESV “Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me. I hope your all are stay safe and healthy.