Goddess

My husband and I both have our own Spotify accounts and it’s awesome being able to find the exact song that I’m looking for, then create and share my playlist. It’s like our version of a mixed tape without the DJ cutting into the song half way through! UGH! I hated that! The other thing WE both love is being able to create a playlist together. So as we listen to music through the day and hear something that reminds us of each other, we can easily add it our our personized playlist. Then the next we listen to our shared album we try to list for the new music that’s been added. It’s a sweet way to say, “Hey, I’m thinking of you.” And as a writer who finds words of great value and a female who is very much Intune with my emotions; I listen to words of each song he has added, to let the music say what maybe he can’t… or in some cases won’t.

We started this about 3 years ago. We were in a much different place back then than we are now. I was in a mental fog… a mess doesn’t cover it. Being able to write was such a saving grace for me but also having music helped. I could add songs to say what I didn’t have the words for.

Our first playlist was called Dreamteam1. We decided this last year it was time to do a new one, called Dreamteam2. We have been through so much over the years, but now have grown and changed. The Dreamteam1 is powerful and meaningful but it has a lot of pain and sadness in it. Listening to it you can really sense the pain and sadness we both were in.

But now we have such joy in our life and the love is bigger. Everything has changed totally. All that pain and sadness wasn’t for nothing… It made us stronger, better, more powerful in the right ways… a priority in each others life. It also made us care for our own well being more… I will not go back to that place but I am thankful for it because it brought us here today. Listening to the playlist is sad… So yes… it was time to move on.

Dreamteam2 is powerful as well, but in a completely different way. It’s about craving one another, being strong in our own life and the life we share together. I love listening to it. It a good reminder to the love we have for each other. And just how much we love life. This might seem like it’s nothing, to enjoy and love your life… but if you really understood where we’ve been, the negative people in our life… the people we’ve had to fight through, the junk, the drama and lies, the health problems over the years because of all of this.. you’d get it. You’d clap for us. It’s been hard but here we are… better, stronger, more in love and grateful than ever.

I wanted to share this with you all because of one song imparticular really spoke to me that I added to our playlist, it’s called a Goddess by Avril Lavigne on her Head Above Water album. This song is special to me because every word is me.

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/avrillavigne/goddess.html

“Goddess”

Dark times, hard times
I didn’t know who I was for a minute
I didn’t know where I was, I was in it
I was lost ’til you found me
Days passed, weeks flashed
I didn’t know anyone who would get it
I thought I knew about love, had to admit it
I was lost ’til you found me

You’re what I was hoping for
All I dreamed of and more
You’re what I’m looking for

He treats me like a goddess, goddess
He thinks I’m sexy in my pajamas
The more I am a hot mess, the more he goes bananas
He treats me like I’m a goddess
To be honest, honest
I didn’t know how bad that I want this
Hard to keep it modest, thinks my body’s flawless
He treats me like I’m a goddess

I was wait, I was wait, I was waitin’
Every day, every night, I would stay in
Now I’m safe and awake and I say
He treats me like I’m a goddess

Good times, bad times
By my side, he’s so sweet, he’s so giving
I thought I’d lived, but you can’t call that living
I was lost ’til you found me

You’re what I was hoping for
All I dreamed of and more (All I dreamed of)
You’re what I’m looking for

He treats me like a goddess, goddess
He thinks I’m sexy in my pajamas
The more I am a hot mess, the more he goes bananas (Oh)
He treats me like I’m a goddess
To be honest, honest
I didn’t know how bad that I want this
It’s hard to keep it modest, thinks my body’s flawless
He treats me like I’m a goddess

I was wait, I was wait, I was waitin’
Every day, every night, I would stay in
Now I’m safe and awake and I say
He treats me like I’m a goddess
I was wait, I was wait, I was waitin’
Every day, every night, I would stay in
Now I’m safe and awake and I say
He treats me like I’m a goddess

Like I’m a goddess, oh
Ha, ah, ha, like I’m a goddess, oh
He treats me like a goddess

I was wait, I was wait, I was waitin’
Every day, every night, I would stay in
(And you know I’m a goddess)
Now I’m safe and awake and I say
He treats me like I’m a goddess
I was wait, I was wait, I was waitin’
Every day, every night, I would stay in
Now I’m safe and awake and I say
He treats me like I’m a goddess
He treats me like I’m a goddess

SK