Don’t Exist Anymore

Don’t Exist Anymore

It's Unbelievable How Fast People Can Change. One Day, You Mean Everything



Life is short, so do the right thing I say.

But who’s to say, what the right thing is anyway?

I’ve done what I could to keep you satisfied.

But now we don’t talk, can’t look each other in the eye.

No trust anymore. Why would we even care to speak again?

Only old photos and memories to look back on now and then.

Too much meanness and too much time has gone by now.

Different people, lives and things I’ve never allow.

By now I thought we’d protect a little better.

Sisters should do better.

What a shame.

Thought we’d learned our lesson from all we’d seen,

honored our friendship and nothing would come between.

But here we are in a pure dictatorship.

Nothing I do will make this different in you head,

the things that you read, are for me.

I’m alone. Why can’t you see?

Sisters aren’t supposed to cut emotionally.

They get you it, infinitely. Their back you never see, a dial tone you never hear.

You will never be judged, never smeared.

I can’t make it better or stop this cycle that’s been made.

My amor isn’t thick enough, I’m afraid.

So we share these people we’ve been exposed to all our life.

Don’t feel the same pains sharp like a knife.

Pretend, just like strangers. We can say ” I don’t know her.”

Try to replace, fill the void with a different person, a new face.

Nothing we do will ever erase, that we share a story and childhood much the same.

A time that only we know. A survival only unique to what we overcame.

That was so long ago, now we’re fading away, we’re blurring.

It wasn’t enough to keep us loyal and it wasn’t enough to make the phone ring.

What choice do we have anymore? Where do we go from here?

It seems clear we have to continue to disappear.

Wish each other well, many blessing and hope for the best.

Pray to dear God we don’t have too much stress.

You keep walking in your direction and I will walk in mine.

We may live like we are stranger, knowing we have a bloodline.

It’s okay. We’ve seen it done before…Pretend the other doesn’t exist!

Be at peace, be happy and no one is pissed.

Close that door.

I’m dead and gone.

Just names we once knew…

And if we are down or ever get blue?

Well, you have your replacement and I surly I have mine.

We filled the applications and life’s moving right along just fine.






6 thoughts on “Don’t Exist Anymore

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  1. Wow Skelly, my heart was deeply moved by this writing of yours. It is raw, real and transparent. I value that – when someone can say, “here I am, I’m bleeding right now but come on in!” You are helping far more people than your realize, knowing they aren’t alone in their own family struggles.

    It is very hard when the people we hope or expect to be there are the very ones who turn their back. I get it, I live it actually. It’s one of the tougher feelings of rejection to overcome. Just remember: often, how someone acts toward us really isn’t about us at all. It is often a reflection of their own demons and issues left needing to be overcome. We can only be the very best versions of ourselves possible. Everything else is out of our hands!

    Sending you all my love and blessings this day and always. I pray happiness shines upon your face brightly this day! ♥


    1. Thank you so much for your comment.
      It truly does help to know that I am not walking this alone. There are so many of us going through the same sad situation. I hope whatever you’re walking through that there are some peaceful resolution soon… and thank you for taking the time send some love this way…I truly do appreciate it beyond measure.


  2. Few things hurt worse than family. I never understood it… the very people who should be there through thick and thin and blood is thicker than water, but I’ve experienced so little of it.


    1. In my experience they hurt the most and are there for you the least.
      As I have moved around the US I have slowly made a new family.
      It’s crazy how these people, who seemingly would be strangers to me have been like family, more supportive and more there for me, then people who have known me my whole life.
      What I have learned from my experiences is that I want to break the cycle with my own family -teach my kids that we don’t turn our backs on each other. Not ever!


      1. I kind of think of family as something you’re not exactly born into but kindred souls you meet throughout life. Like the few people I have here that refuse to let me go. Who’ve prayed for me and checked in on me. Isn’t that what family supposed to do?


      2. I agree in a way… I have may so many great friends all over and they are so supportive and caring to me and my kids and in my marriage. I actually so grateful. But still it hurts we don’t have the loyalty and kindness from the people who have walks with us the longest. That’s painful even if I have put it to rest I still grieve the lost.


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