Where’s My Writing Mojo?

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At the doctors office for pre post-op.

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I’m not sure what it is? Why I’m struggling to get my fingers moving again. I almost feel like I can’t write or “go back to work” until my monsters…aka kids…go back to school. So much has happened. So much has changed and so much more is going to change. I just can’t seem to get a rhythm going. I can’t find my beat. I feel like I’m trying to jump rope but my timing, my rhythm’s off so I’m tripping myself up.

I was sure after this last appointment I’d get my mojo back. I was happy and up beat. My pain is mostly all gone! Which I am ecstatic about! Living a life pain free is a miracle and one that I never thought was in the cards for me! Trust me when I said that I am over joyed with how good I feel right now. But motivation?…not so much. I feel like I have ADD really really bad. I am having a horrible time concentrating on anything at all! It take me forever to do one task because I will do half of 10 other task before I get to one I started at the start…I’m losing my mind. My focus is way off.

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I did get the thumbs up to drive again since I’m not taking any pain meds anymore. I still can’t be on my feet for long periods of time or lift anything over 10 lbs but I can drive! YAY! I am not working out, doing any Yoga, meditation or keto right now.

I can’t hardly handle writing out a single thought! Just writing this post is a struggle for me, who am I kidding! I have so much I want to say but getting the words out is more than a struggle!

I want to share with you all about my sisters and my how I am having a terrible time being myself around one of them now. I want you know that have betrayed I feel and hurt. I want to tell you how scare I am about estrogen therapy and gaining anymore weight! I want to write about my relationship my parents and how weird I feel right now. I want to write about my Grandma Magruder and how we have start talking and good this has made feel. I want to write about all my blessing and how truly grateful I am for my amazing husband, my kids and my Meg. I would love to walk you all down the road Meg and I have been through that got us to where we are today. I wish I could hold a single thought together so I could share everything thats happened the last month and what is to come in the next 30 days…but I can’t. I want to write about my son and how I have never been prouder in my life. It’s not that I don’t have the words, it’s that I don’t have the focus…I’m rattled for some reason. I just don’t am not in my writing groove right now…not yet.

I hope and pray that all of you… my sweet blogging community with stick with me while I’m in transition.

xoxo sk

12 thoughts on “Where’s My Writing Mojo?

  1. What are you talking about? You just created a heartfelt post! Use this time of healing to journal your thoughts. Soon you’ll be right back with more mojo than you realized you ever had!

  2. Seems like you’ve found your way!

    I don’t have too much of an issue with mojo… more like an issue with a topic that will both be relevant and make sense… something interesting..

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