Vlog Part 1:
Making good, sound decisions for my body is a top priority and right now it’s stressing me the hell out! I can’t sleep, I can’t make plans for our summer! Am I having surgery? Am I just going to have to suffer through some side-effects from meds for a bit to solve a bigger problem? What should I do? What can I do?
What can I actually control here and make better? This is most definitely a time for prayer because I have no clue what is best for my body or my family right now.
O by the way…after I re-watched this vlog, I think I said I was 27! Wow! Maybe I subconsciously I wish I was 27 again? Either way I am most definitely not 27. I am 37 and will be 38, July 10! I am well on my way to 40 damn years old. I can’t believe that I am this old and I am just now figuring out half of the things I am learning, but this is truly how you know you are living. You have a life and you are progressing in that life. I absolutely am not just alive but living, even on my really bad days. I am totally and fully engaged in this bad boy!
Please enjoy this short interlude.
My daughter, Grace had decided to make (in her words) “an speriment”! Her bathroom gives me anxiety! I must love ya’ll to show you my bathroom! My gross, and covered in red glitter and whatever other nastiness… bathroom! Please don’t look to close! Holy…
Vlog Part 2:
We’re getting deep now guys! I never, never intend for my videos to go this crazy long and then they do and I feel like a damn chatter box! What in the world! This just proves my point, when I say over and over…”I am lonely”…obviously!
I really should invest in writing some notes to help keep me on track. What I found was that I am so consumed with my notes and doing it perfectly, that it’s not real anymore. The real me is weird, goofy and messes up and says “so” like SO many times! (I’ve really got to stop doing that!) I will get better, my writing will get better. It takes time but we all have to start somewhere right!
So thank you so much for sticking with me and supporting me through this crazy dream of mine. You all make it possible for me to keep doing this with a courageous and loving spirit. I know this isn’t perfect and I am so far from perfect myself…I’ll never be…ever, but honestly perfect isn’t what I’m going for. I want real and honest and that is just what this is.
Sure my camera setup may need improvement. That will come. My writing skill and all the things that come with that, will improve too because I will keep pushing, growing and learning…and also because Google and YouTube are seriously my best friends!
Disclaimer: I had the worst time recording Part 2 and I may never ever in this life time do a Part 1 & 2 as long as I live! With my oil business (www.joy-terraessentials.com), my wifely and Motherly duties, along with taking care of other kids this week and tackling my daughter room…it’s what nightmares are made of, and handling my health junk…I may have been a tab bit of over my head this week. SOOOOOO….I soooooo apologize for my Vlogging situations and I will do better in the future!
Quote from an amazing man! I have read his book, Own The Moment and I think I might read it again next month because it has so many important and valuable points in it. I need to consume this book many more times, until I know it by heart! He is the best.
“When our souls are healthy we change the environment, the environment doesn’t change us.” -Carl Lentz