It’s Monday

 

I swear my head is all over the place today! I took out the coffee creamer and put it back three times before I ever used it today! What’s wrong with me! I am just having a day! I can’t seem to get my stuff together. It’s not a bad day, just a weird, unorganized day. 

**Recording was difficult. I was shaking and just having trouble staying forced. I apologize for my face. I have had the worse allergies I’ve had in years. I feel like I have a head cold!

 

My kids will be home for the summer…Tuesday is their last day. Is it bad that I am slightly terrified to be trapped with these small starving terrorist? I am looking forwarded to not having to wake up at 5:30am every morning. That will be great!

Last summer, I was going through the deepest part of my depression and new symptoms started in my gut that made me feel awful all the time. I wasn’t happy, I wasn’t the mom I normally am to the kids. It was a tough time for me. I was going through a lot mentally. I had just realized that some of my closest relationships weren’t that close at all. I was grieving, lost, shook up and learning to be alone. Everyone would say well you have your husband. But I didn’t…not really. I was alone 90% of time. I had myself but I was a pile of goo.

It took awhile for me to shake that off and toughen up. I saw that I was always strong but differently than anyone knew. I stopped the guilt and made new friends and new relationships that are better than anything I ever knew before. I started to process the pain of the past and break away to become the person I am now. I couldn’t be more thankful.

Yes, this anxiety suck and it’s here. I have it but it doesn’t have me. I will have to fight it. I have to!

 

So I went outside to get some air and this damn bird from hell was stocking me!

Have a great week!

Our anxiety does not come from thinking about the future, but from wanting to control it.

kahlil Gibran

xoxo sk