The reason why I love you…

 

***A little back story**

As I started this journey, JOY on Purpose about 4 months ago, there were three things I wanted for myself. To have a peaceful mind, a JOYful spirit and a healthy body, all in hopes it would reverberate on to my people and everyone else I made contact with. I have and am currently doing many different things to embrace this JOY on Purpose lifestyle. This includes restoring and improve my relationships with God, my friends and family, after all we were created to be in relationships with others, they need to be healthy ones!  I recently downloaded an app to help me and encourage me, along with my doctor’s guidance, called Pacifica.   It’s been an amazing app for my depression and anxiety. It has places to create a HOPE broad for those days you feel down. I also get daily/weekly challenges. Some of my challenges are easier than others but all have a difficulty ranking. For an example, when I first began on the path just taking a short walk outside was hard for me and would have been ranked an 8 out 10. As I continue using the app it monitors my ups and downs. It will change my challenges to keep to me motivated, help me to improve and keep me growing in the right direction. So all this leads me to my challenge for this week! I was asked to list the reasons why I love my husband, Jason. I’ve decided to share this with ya’all because during this process he has been my biggest fan, biggest support, MY ROCK and the one who deals with and loves me through the times I crash and burn. So….here we go!

 

It began with God & Us…

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1. Because we’re a team. Good or bad we tackle it together. We lift each other up. We take care of one another and want the best for each other. I can count on you. I can trust you and I do. You make me smile. You make me laugh (I’m still funnier than you). You know me better than anyone and you still stick around. You take me as I am. You make me want to be a better person all around. You encourage me and strength me. You defend me and protect me. I have fun with you. I love making memory with you. You have a huge, gentle and very forgiving heart. You love God and you’re faithful. You’re a hard worker and you push for your best always. You lead your family and respect me as your wife and friend. We share our dreams and goals with each other. You keep us all safe. You’re a good son, father, friend and husband. You are so smart… no really… you’re brilliant! You’re strong, not only physically but mentally. You make things happen! You don’t sit around and wait for things to fall into place, you’re a go get’er! I am thankful for you in so many ways and I truly love you and now the world knows it!

Memory Lane…

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2.  It all started with a dog named Buddy. I have so many good memories of just the three of us. Do you remember what Saturday mornings were like when we only had our Buddy Boy? We would go to a coffee shop for our coffee, meet up with friends and go to the dog park. Buddy loved going for car rides! What a good passenger! We could plan a camping trip last minute -no prob- Buddy would tag along and maybe chase a few boy scouts through our campsite! THAT WAS FUN! He went to work with me everyday for a long while before we had kids and he was everything to us for even longer! Dillion Reservoir in Dillion Colorado will always be a special place to me because that was the last place we took Buddy when we got the news he was sick. I think our Buddy Boy did manage one more trip. Remember our anniversary in Central City, Colorado and we camped out, we went on a few little hikes and saw all the colors of the leaves changing in the mountains with Buddy one last time. That was such a great trip! I’ll remember that trip forever! Buddy was so happy but he was tired. He was such a good boy.  I will alway miss him. Our first baby.

 

Then God made us parents…

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3. Tristan- Our son. It blows my mind that God allowed us to be parents. I still feel like a kids myself sometimes. You made me a mom! I made you a Dad! I couldn’t believe I was going to have a baby, let alone a son. The first boy in my family of females! This was a big deal! Do you remember how happy my Dad was? Sweet relief for him, I’m sure! I was in love and still am with those beautiful eyes! Remember how you used to carried him around like a little football? We are raising a little dude! Can you believe this? And he is now becoming a teenagers! God help us! Remember his 1st birthday was a damn throw down! We were so proud of ourself for making it through that first year too! It was a celebration for keeping another human alive for a whole year! IMPRESSIVE!! I remember holding this incredible tiny 7 lb.12 oz baby and thinking WE were never going to last but we all have. Do you remember putting Tristan in his carseat in the car and driving around the neighbor for hours to get him to sleep? I do! Do you remember everyone telling us it would go by so fast and thinking those midnight wake up calls from a crying baby were lasting forever but now… it seems like it was only yesterday. I miss the little guy he was but I am sure proud of who he is becoming and I am so excited to see where is goes in this life! We are doing a great job at this parenting thing… which leads me to…

 

All eyes on you…

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4. You are a great Dad. I know you don’t feel like you are… join the club…I feel like a terrible Mother most days. But I think the fact that we worry about it makes us pretty awesome parents! Tristan was our first, we had no clue at all… and he is pretty dang perfect and looks up to you so much. So high five!  You are a great DAD! The other day he came home and told me “Mom, when I got to school today I was so sad.” I asked him why? He answered, “because I wanted to hug my Dad and I miss him.”  The time you spend with Tristan he truly enjoys and when you’re away he misses you.  He told me in the car the other day he feels so lucky to have the parents that he does. Everyday he wants to call you just to hear your voice. You’re his person! So anytime you feel like you’re not good enough read this again and again. Tristan looks up to you. You’re his hero and mine too!

 

Those years of lesson’s & blessing’s…

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5. Then a lil girl in pink showed up and rocked our world! Gigi came into this world in our most difficult time in life. It was so hard. Do remember that? All our food came from the food bank, me having hospital stays month after month, my gall bladder removal, change in jobs, our power would go out, our rent money being stolen by the landlord, broken down cars… just wow. Let’s take a minute to be thankful that’s over and we stuck through it all together. It was hard but look at this picture. Do you remember how thankful we were for those years in that house? Someone took at chance on us. Remember that? It was at the moment everything started to fall into place for us. You started a new job, I took a year off from work to bond with Gigi because I missed being able to before with her, we stated to do things together more, our baby girl was the center of so much. Gigi had been through a lot before she even turned 1 years old. Those were some crazy years, full of lessons and growth, laugher and love. You most diffidently were the strength, the rock for our family.

 

Our Grace…

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6. Gigi- Our Daughter. Those hard times didn’t slow her down. They made her strong. She was tough. She is passionate for her family and no one will mess with her family! Period. She’s a tough one. Remember she would mess around in the garage with you and liked “working” on the car. I would laugh so hard when she was really little, she would say “Hey, Daddy, I got poop in my butt, come clean it!” Do you remember how she stared talking so earlier in life and never stopped?  I do! You were so much more involved with Gigi, feedings, bath times, playing around, there’s just nothing you wouldn’t do for this Daddy’s girl and she knows it. You got her to love The Denver Broncos! Every Sunday she would climb up onto the couch and watch the whole Football game with you… even take a half time nap. I do miss those days! You taught her how to catch a ball! Every time she caught the ball she was so proud of herself! You were proud too. She is such a perfectionist too, I wonder where she gets that from? Or her love for attention…Jason! She likes to make you proud too! She saves all her best behavior for you! And I can’t tell you how many times she has asked me to fix things and under her breath she’ll say ” I hope it doesn’t need batteries because that’s a Daddy job.”  Oh Gigi! You are one spicy meatball!

 

God is so Good…

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7.Both these little Kelly’s are so blessed to have a Dad who LOVES them and their Mom like you do. Who takes amazing cares of us and works his fingers and brain to breaking points for his family. Someone to take them camping, fishing, on road trips, play games with them, supports them, helps them with homework and saves them from a Mom who desperately needs a break from them once in awhile. You are the leader of our home. Every night the kids and I pray and I wish you could hear what they say about you. You’re so loved, so wanted, so needed, so appreciated, so cared about, so admired and we thank God for you everyday and night.

 

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So Jason if you’ve ever wonder. You can pry stop now. I love ya like a fat kid love cake! And you know I love cake!